October 2: W-E-A-R-Y

i AM W-E-A-R-Y TONIGHT.  i'M TIRED OF GETTING UP AT 4 A.M.  iT DOESN'T HELP THAT MY COWORKER IS ON MATERNITY LEAVE.  iT DOESN'T HELP THAT i CAN'T SEEM TO GET INTO THE SWING OF THIS FALL SEMESTER.  iT DOESN'T HELP THAT, EVERY OTHER DAY, i HAVE SOME NEW KIND OF WORRY TO ADD TO MY MENU OF WORRIES.

i NEED A NEW WAY TO LOOK AT THE WORLD.  i NEED ANOTHER WAY OF THINKING ABOUT LIFE.  tHAT'S WHY i'M TYPING THIS POST IN REVERSE CAPITALIZATION.  i'M HOPING IT WILL MAYBE HELP ME SEE THINGS A LITTLE DIFFERENTLY.  nO, i'M NOT YELLING THROUGH THIS ENTIRE ENTRY.  i'M JUST TRYING TO GET MYSELF OUT OF THE RUT OF NEGATIVITY i'M STUCK IN.  tHAT'S MY GOAL, ANYWAY.

sO, MONEY, JOBS, HEALTH, HAPPINESS.  i AM A BLESSED MAN.  i HAVE GREAT KIDS.  i HAVE A LOVING WIFE, WHO SUPPORTS ME IN MY CRAZY LIFE AS A POET AND TEACHER AND MUSICIAN AND FATHER AND HUSBAND.  bLESSINGS FALL ON ME EVERY DAY.

sAINT mARTY JUST NEEDS TO OPEN HIS EYES AND SEE THINGS IN A NEW LIGHT.  tHE LIGHT OF HOPE.

TRYING TO EMBRACE CHANGE, SORT OF