Yes, Holden fantasizes about running away from home, finding a job, and leading a bucolic life in the woods as a pretend mute. Obviously, he never follows through on this fantasy. He has a breakdown instead.
Speaking of breakdowns, you're probably wondering whether I'm still employed by the church. Yes, the church board met last night. Yes, the church board had a very long discussion about the subject. Yes, a decision was made. The decision was to eliminate my current position and come up with a job description/pay scale for another position I currently hold in the church. (If you didn't follow the logic of that statement, don't try too hard. There isn't much logic in it.) Not only that, but I will also have to apply and interview for said job. That I currently already have.
I don't understand it, either. It all boils down to the fact that I really got no answer last night. So, I'm pretty much in the same place I was last night. Limbo. And there's no better way to get out of limbo than through prayer.
I know that You know that I know You know, ya know? You know what's in my heart. You know what's best for me. You also know I have a very difficult time letting go of the reins of my life. Tonight, I'm reluctantly stepping off the driver's seat of the stagecoach. You are in charge, and I guess I'll accept whatever You send my way. I don't really have a choice.
All I'm asking is that You watch out for my kids and my wife. I don't want to see them struggle or suffer. I will do whatever You ask of me, as long as it doesn't involve any kind of rodent. Please keep my family safe.
Your loving child,
|Don't ask me to do it, God|