Thursday, October 18, 2018

October 18: The Deck, Out Loud, Balm

The coffin laid upon two line-tubs, between the vice-bench and the open hatchway; the Carpenter caulking its seams; the string of twisted oakum slowly unwinding from a large roll of it placed in the bosom of his frock.- Ahab comes slowly from the cabin-gangway, and hears Pip following him.

"Back lad; I will be with ye again presently. He goes! Not this hand complies with my humor more genially than that boy.- Middle aisle of a church! What's here?"

"Life-buoy, sir. Mr. Starbuck's orders. Oh, look, sir! Beware the hatchway!"

"Thank ye, man. Thy coffin lies handy to the vault."

"Sir? The hatchway? oh! So it does, sir, so it does."

"Art not thou the leg-maker? Look, did not this stump come from thy shop?"

"I believe it did, sir; does the ferrule stand, sir?"

"Well enough. But art thou not also the undertaker?"

"Aye, sir; I patched up this thing here as a coffin for Queequeg; but they've set me now to turning it into something else."

"Then tell me; art thou not an arrant, all-grasping, intermeddling, monopolizing, heathenish old scamp, to be one day making legs, and the next day coffins to clap them in, and yet again life-buoys out of those same coffins? Thou art as unprincipled as the gods, and as much of a jack-of-all-trades."

"But I do not mean anything, sir. I do as I do."

"The gods again. Hark ye, dost thou not ever sing working about a coffin? The Titans, they say, hummed snatches when chipping out the craters for volcanoes; and the grave-digger in the play sings, spade in hand. Dost thou never?"

"Sing, sir? Do I sing? Oh, I'm indifferent enough, sir, for that; but the reason why the grave-digger made music must have been because there was none in his spade, sir. But the caulking mallet is full of it. Hark to it."

"Aye, and that's because the lid there's a sounding-board; and what in all things makes the sounding-board is this- there's naught beneath. And yet, a coffin with a body in it rings pretty much the same, Carpenter. Hast thou ever helped carry a bier, and heard the coffin knock against the churchyard gate, going in?

"Faith, sir, I've-"

"Faith? What's that?"

"Why, faith, sir, it's only a sort of exclamation-like- that's all, sir."

"Um, um; go on."

"I was about to say, sir, that-"

"Art thou a silk-worm? Dost thou spin thy own shroud out of thyself? Look at thy bosom! Despatch! and get these traps out of sight."

"He goes aft. That was sudden, now; but squalls come sudden in hot latitudes. I've heard that the Isle of Albermarle, one of the Gallipagos, is cut by the Equator right in the middle. Seems to me some sort of Equator cuts yon old man, too, right in his middle. He's always under the Line- fiery hot, I tell ye! He's looking this way- come, oakum; quick. Here we go again. This wooden mallet is the cork, and I'm the professor of musical glasses- tap, tap!"

(Ahab to himself)

"There's a sight! There's a sound! The greyheaded wood-pecker tapping the hollow tree! Blind and dumb might well be envied now. See! that thing rests on two line-tubs, full of tow-lines. A most malicious wag, that fellow. Rat-tat! So man's seconds tick! Oh! how immaterial are all materials! What things real are there, but imponderable thoughts? Here now's the very dreaded symbol of grim death, by a mere hap, made the expressive sign of the help and hope of most endangered life. A life-buoy of a coffin! Does it go further? Can it be that in some spiritual sense the coffin is, after all, but an immortality-preserver! I'll think of that. But no. So far gone am I in the dark side of earth, that its other side, the theoretic bright one, seems but uncertain twilight to me. Will ye never have done, Carpenter, with that accursed sound? I go below; let me not see that thing here when I return again. Now, then, Pip, we'll talk this over; I do suck most wondrous philosophies from thee! Some unknown worlds must empty into thee!"

Ahab reflects on quite a few things in this short chapter--mortality, immortality, music, wisdom, philosophy.  There is a sense of impending doom, with the ship's carpenter ordered to transform a coffin into a life-preserver (or, as Ahab says, an immortality preserver).  Ahab cannot stand the sight of the coffin.  Perhaps it's superstition.  Perhaps it's premonition.  He retreats from the sight, seeking the company and counsel of Pip, who lost his sanity many chapters ago.

It's pretty much the end of the week for me.  I work tomorrow.  Teach poetry to a group of fifth graders.  Tomorrow evening, I will go out to eat with my wife and daughter and my daughter's boyfriend.  It will be a welcome respite from the turmoil and uncertainty of these last couple weeks.  Like Ahab, I retreat below decks tomorrow.  Become a hermit for a few days. 

Tonight, however, is also respite for me.  I'm attending an event called Out Loud at the Joy Center here in my home town of Ishpeming.  It's a time for writers and poets and musicians and artists to come together, share stories, poems, songs, paintings.  I've been attending Out Loud almost every month for the last year or so.

There's something very comforting and safe in the evening.  Sometimes, ten people attend.  Other times, it's just me and the owner of the Joy Center, my good friend, Helen.  The evening sort of shapes itself.  There's never a plan or theme.  It's not that organized.  Yet, somehow, all the stories and poems and songs connect in a strange and miraculous way.

And I always find a kind of healing taking place inside me as I sit and listen and share.  As Ahab says about Pip, some unknown worlds empty into this safe space, and it's a balm to my weary mind.  Whenever I'm around poets and artists like this, I always come away feeling mended.  Rejuvenated.  Ready to face the world again.  That is why the arts are so important in society.  They are able to stitch a broken world back together.

Saint Marty is thankful tonight for the healing and light of poetry.

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