Showing posts with label Our Town. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Our Town. Show all posts

Monday, February 21, 2022

February 21: No Hurricane Coming Now, Still Snowing, Yoopers

Santiago reflects on weather . . .

He looked across the sea and knew how alone he was now. But he could see the prisms in the deep dark water and the line stretching ahead and the strange undulation of the calm. The clouds were building up now for the trade wind and he looked ahead and saw a flight of wild ducks etching themselves against the sky over the water, then blurring, then etching again and he knew no man was ever alone on the sea.

He thought of how some men feared being out of sight of land in a small boat and knew they were right in the months of sudden bad weather. But now they were in hurricane months and, when there are no hurricanes, the weather of hurricane months is the best of all the year.

If there is a hurricane you always see the signs of it in the sky for days ahead, if you are at sea. They do not see it ashore because they do not know what to look for, he thought. The land must make a difference too, in the shape of the clouds. But we have no hurricane coming now.

He looked at the sky and saw the white cumulus built like friendly piles of ice cream and high above were the thin feathers of the cirrus against the high September sky.

Santiago's livelihood depends on the weather.  He must know what the sea and clouds hold for him every day.  If he can't look at the sky and predict what it has in store for him, he might very well die.  Or lose a good day of fishing.  The watch of Santiago's life is set to the second hand of weather.

Today, it snowed.  A lot.  At least six or seven inches.  It's still snowing.  By the time I wake up tomorrow morning, there will probably be another foot of snow on the ground.  And it will still be snowing.  There's a line in Thornton Wilder's Our Town that goes like this:  "If it ain't rain, it's a three-day blow."  That's pretty much what we have right now.  The snow and wind aren't supposed to stop until Wednesday morning.

I've lived in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan for most of my life, except for a short stint in a PhD program at a university downstate.  I know winter and snow and wind.  We Yoopers take pride in our ability to endure this kind of weather.  Six inches of fresh snow won't even slow a Yooper down.  We will still go to school and work and church and movies.  We are a hardy group.  

If you haven't lived here for more than 20 years, don't complain aloud about all the snow in the U. P.  You will get stink-eyed from Yoopers, and the thought you will see scrolling across our faces will be something like, "Stupid troll" (the term we use for anyone who lives anywhere but  above the Mackinac Bridge).  Yoopers are allowed to complain about snow and wind.  We have earned that right through the tens of thousands of inches of white precipitation we have shoveled and moved in our lifespans.  

Being one of those lifelong U. P. residents, I can say, without any Yooper shame, that I am tired of snow today.  I'm running out of places to push it on my property.  My puppy wakes up every morning, goes outside for her constitutional, and finds a fresh new landscape, her familiar scents and holes buried again.  

Yet, tomorrow morning, my alarm clock will be set for 5 a.m.  My wife needs to be at work by 7 a.m.  We will roll out of bed, bleary and exhausted.  I will prod myself awake with toothpaste and shaving cream, do my normal ablutions.  And then, I will pull on my boots, put on my coat-hat-gloves, grab a shovel, and head into the snow to shovel out my car.

This is the life of a Yooper, from about October to May (sometimes June).  A series of snowstorms interrupted by sleep.

Saint Marty has this to say, "If it ain't sun, it's a three-day snow."



Monday, March 9, 2020

March 9: Heavy Branches of Evergreens, Bernie Sanders and Ronald Reagan, Bipartisan Love

Merton on travelling with his grandparents . . .

The first day was not so bad for me and Father, because we were still in France.  We saw a little of Dijon, and the train passed through Besancon on the way to Basle.  But as soon as we got in Switzerland, things were different.

For some reason, we found Switzerland extremely tedious.  It was not Father's kind of landscape, and anyway he had no time to sketch or paint anything, even if he had wanted to.  In every city we hunted, first thing of all, for the museum.  But the museums were never satisfactory.  They were filled mostly with huge canvasses by some modern Swiss national artist, paintings representing monstrous great executioners trying to chop the heads off Swiss patriots.  Besides, it was always hard for us to find the museum in the first place, because we did not know German, and we couldn't make any sense out of the answers people gave us.  Then when we finally did get there, instead of the comfort of a few decent pictures, we would immediately be confronted by another immense red and yellow cartoon by this Swiss jingo whose name I have forgotten.

Finally we took to making fun of everything in the museums, and playing around, and putting our hats on the statues, which was all right because the place was already totally deserted anyway.  But once or twice we nearly got in trouble with the stuffy Swiss custodians, who came around the corner by surprise and found us mocking the hatted masterworks, kidding the busts of Beethoven and the rest.

As a matter of fact, the only pleasure Father got out of the whole expedition was a jazz concert he heard in Paris, given by a big American Negro orchestra--I cannot imagine who it was.  I think it was too far back for Louis Armstrong:  but Father was very happy with that.  I did not go.  Pop did not approve of jazz.  But when we got to Lucerne, there was an orchestra in the hotel, and our table in the dining room was so close to it that I could reach out and touch the drums.  And the drummer was a Negro with whom I immediately made friends, although he was rather shy.  Meals were very interesting with all this business like drumming going on right in my ear, and I was more fascinated by the activities of the drummer than I was by the melons and meats that were set before us.  This was the only pleasure I got out of Switzerland and then almost immediately, Pop got out table changed.  

The rest of the time was one long fight.  We fought on pleasure steamers, we fought on funicular railways, we fought on the tops of mountains and at the foot of mountains and by the shores of lakes and under the heavy branches of the evergreens.

Merton's father doesn't seem to like his father-in-law all that much, and Merton follows suit.  Granted, "Pop" is a little more tightly wound than the Mertons are accustomed to.  Merton's relationships with them would be akin to having Bernie Sanders as a father and Ronald Reagan as a grandfather.

I understand this dynamic quite well.  Those of my disciples who know me well would use many adjectives to describe me, but "conventional" or "conservative" would not be one of those adjectives.  My father, on the other hand, voted Republican in every presidential election except 1960.  (Kennedy was my father's favorite President.)  Yes, he voted for Donald Trump before he died.  Imagine me growing up under my father's roof.  Poet.  Actor.  Musician.  Teacher.  Further to the left than Jesus Christ.  It was tough some days.

Yet, underlying all the disagreements I had with my father regarding politics, there was mutual respect.  I know my father was proud of my accomplishments.  He went to musicals I directed.  Was in the front row when I played the Stage Manager in Our Town.  Attended poetry readings when he could.  Me?  I respected how much he was devoted to my mother and siblings.  Family values really meant something to him.

One of my best memories of my dad late in his life--the first time I was named Poet Laureate of the Upper Peninsula.  It was a televised event, where I sat with the other finalist, being interviewed and reading poems.  At the end of the show, Donald Hall, former Poet Laureate of the United States, announced the winner.  When Hall said my name, I though my father was never going to stop smiling.  That night wasn't about our differences.  It was just about joy--my dad was really happy for me.

I never doubted that my dad loved me.  It wasn't a question.  He loved me, despite all of my "radical" ideas about feeding the poor, universal healthcare, and taxing the wealthy.  He might have thought I was a communist, but in the alchemy of our relationship, that simply didn't matter.

Saint Marty forged a bipartisan love with his father.


Saturday, May 11, 2019

May 11: Atoms and Molecules, Relationships, Interconnectivity

And the stolen spaceship Heart of Gold sails on through the galaxy . . .

The Heart of Gold fled silently through the night of space, now on conventional photon drive.  Its crew of four were ill at ease knowing that they had been brought together not of their own volition or by simple coincidence, but by some curious perversion of physics--as if relationships between people were susceptible to the same laws that governed relationships between atoms and molecules.

As the ship's artificial night closed in they were each grateful to retire to separate cabins and try to rationalize their thoughts.

Relationships between people were susceptible to the same laws that governed relationships between atoms and molecules.  I sort of like that notion.  The very fabric of the universe governed by relationships, which is pretty accurate, I guess.  Electrons in relationships with protons in relationships with neutrons in relationships with atoms in relationships with molecules in relationships with elements in relationships with compounds in relationship with . . . Well, you get the idea.  Eventually, if I continued that list, I would get to human beings in relationships to human beings in relationships to the environment in relationships to the planet Earth in relationships to the galaxy in relationships to the universe in relationships to space in relationships to the mind of God.  (I stole that last one from Thornton Wilder's Our Town.)

I love that idea of interconnectivity.  In fact, I firmly believe in it.  Every action has an equal and opposite reaction.  You get the idea.  This morning, when I woke up, I sent texts to two of my best friends, letting them know that I was thinking of them.  A short while later, I received a response back from one of them, reaffirming her love and friendship.  Relationships.  They are so important.

Today, my daughter is going to the prom with her boyfriend of two years.  It's going to be a day of preparation.  After I'm done typing this blog post, I'm going to go wash and vacuum out my car.  Then I'm going to clean my house, because my daughter is bringing home some of her friends to spend the night after the prom is over.  They're going to have a fire in the backyard in a fire pit I purchased yesterday.  That fire pit has to be assembled today, as well.  (I'm leaving that one up to my daughter's boyfriend.)  For my daughter, this whole day is going to be about relationships.

In a couple of weeks, my daughter will be graduating from high school, and her relationship to her whole life is going to change.  She's smart, beautiful, compassionate, and hard-working.  I know she'll do well.  I also know that my relationship with her will change, as well.  I'm not going to be able to protect her as much from the bumps and bruises of the world.  She's going to face struggles and heartbreaks, and all that I'll be able to do is offer advice, maybe a little wisdom, and a lot of love.

That is the thing that I've been learning these last few weeks.  Relationships are very fluid.  They change.  They adapt.  They change again.  (For my constant readers out there, you know how much I enjoy change.)  Yet, in the end, strong bonds endure.  They're elemental.  Subatomic even.  It's pretty difficult to break apart atoms.  If you try, the results are Hiroshima or Nagasaki.  War.  Famine.  Climate change.  Refugees.  Poverty.  Homelessness.  Divorce.

Today, I'm sailing along in my Heart of Gold, watching as my relationships in the universe shift again.

Keep an eye on Facebook.  Saint Marty will post pictures when he gets to his destination.


Sunday, March 10, 2019

March 10: Fetid Little Passage, Calumet Theatre, Being On Stage

Ford and Arthur are about to be tortured with some Vogon poetry . . .

The sweat stood out cold on Ford Prefect's brow, and slid round the electrodes strapped to his temples.  These were attached to a battery of electronic equipment--imaginary intensifiers, rhythmic modulators, alliterative residulators and simile dampers--all designed to heighten the experience of the poem and make sure that not a single nuance of the poet's thought was lost.

Arthur Dent sat and quivered.  He had no idea what he was in for, but he knew that he hadn't like anything that had happened so far and didn't think things were likely to change.

The Vogon began to read--a fetid little passage of his own devising.

"Oh freddled gruntbuggly . . ." he began.  Spasms wracked Ford's body--this was worse than even he'd been prepared for.

"? . . . thy micturations are to me - A plurdled gabbleblotchits on a lurgid bee."

"Aaaaaaargggghhhhhh!" went Ford Prefect, wrenching his head back as lumps of pain thumped through it.  He could dimly see beside him Arthur lolling and rolling in his seat.  He clenched his teeth.

"Groop I implore thee." continued the merciless Vogon, "my foonting turlingdromes."

His voice was rising to a horrible pitch of impassioned stridency.  "And hooptiously drangle me with crinkly bindlewurdles, / Or I will tend thee in the gobberwarts with my blurglecruncheon, see if I don't!"

"Nnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyuuuuuurrrrrrgggggghhhh!" cried Ford Prefect and threw one final spasm as the electronic enhancement of the last line caught him full blast across the temples.  He went limp.

Arthur lolled.

"Now, Earthlings . . " whirred the Vogon (he didn't know that Ford Prefect was in fact from a small planet somewhere in the vicinity of Betelgeuse, and wouldn't have cared if he had), "I present you with a simple choice!  Either die in the vacuum of space, or . . ." he paused for melodramatic effect, "tell me how good you thought my poem was!"

I am back from performing at the Calumet Theatre.  The show ended last night around 9:30, and, by the time I got to my hotel room, I had just enough energy to order a pepperoni pizza, eat a few slices, and then fall asleep.  Any blogging I might have done last night would have sounded like Vogon poetry, so I decided to forgo any attempt at it.

I think the show went well.  I didn't notice anyone spasming in their seats or screaming "Nnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyuuuuuurrrrrrgggggghhhh!"  Therefore, I will take that as a sign that the we didn't suck.

All kidding aside, I am really lucky to work with some great artists at The Red Jacket Jamboree.  They have become like family to me, as I said in my last post.  As a poet, I don't get a whole lot of opportunities to be around people who truly appreciate what I do.  If someone asks me what I do for a living, and I reply that I'm a poet, that someone will suddenly find a mole on his/her arm that needs to be removed.  Poetry is like sorcery to most everyone I meet. 

The other thing that The Red Jacket Jamboree gives me is the opportunity to flex a few of my other skills--acting, singing, writing scripts, and comedy.  I used to do quite a lot of theater work.  I actually was the lead in A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum.  I played the Stage Manager in a production of Thorton Wilder's Our Town.  I've directed plays and musicals, as well.  Until I started working at the Calumet Theatre for this radio show, I didn't realize how much I missed being on stage.

So, Saint Marty gets the best of all worlds on these weekend jaunts to the Keweenaw.  And the audience pays good money to hear, among other things, a few poems.  Pretty cool.


Saturday, April 7, 2018

April 7: Maned Sea-lion, Rich Man, Stage Manager

It is noon; and Dough-Boy, the steward, thrusting his pale loaf-of-bread face from the cabin-scuttle, announces dinner to his lord and master who, sitting in the lee quarter-boat, has just been taking an observation of the sun; and is now mutely reckoning the latitude on the smooth, medallion-shaped tablet, reserved for that daily purpose on the upper part of his ivory leg. From his complete inattention to the tidings, you would think that moody Ahab had not heard his menial. But presently, catching hold of the mizen shrouds, he swings himself to the deck, and in an even, unexhilarated voice, saying, "Dinner, Mr. Starbuck," disappears into the cabin.

When the last echo of his sultan's step has died away, and Starbuck, the first Emir, has every reason to suppose that he is seated, then Starbuck rouses from his quietude, takes a few turns along the planks, and, after a grave peep into the binnacle, says, with some touch of pleasantness, "Dinner, Mr. Stubb," and descends the scuttle. The second Emir lounges about the rigging awhile, and then slightly shaking the main brace, to see whether it will be all right with that important rope, he likewise takes up the old burden, and with a rapid "Dinner, Mr. Flask," follows after his predecessors.

But the third Emir, now seeing himself all alone on the quarter-deck, seems to feel relieved from some curious restraint; for, tipping all sorts of knowing winks in all sorts of directions, and kicking off his shoes, he strikes into a sharp but noiseless squall of a hornpipe right over the Grand Turk's head; and then, by a dexterous sleight, pitching his cap up into the mizentop for a shelf, he goes down rollicking so far at least as he remains visible from the deck, reversing all other processions, by bringing up the rear with music. But ere stepping into the cabin doorway below, he pauses, ships a new face altogether, and, then, independent, hilarious little Flask enters King Ahab's presence, in the character of Abjectus, or the Slave.

It is not the least among the strange things bred by the intense artificialness of sea-usages, that while in the open air of the deck some officers will, upon provocation, bear themselves boldly and defyingly enough towards their commander; yet, ten to one, let those very officers the next moment go down to their customary dinner in that same commander's cabin, and straightway their inoffensive, not to say deprecatory and humble air towards him, as he sits at the head of the table; this is marvellous, sometimes most comical. Wherefore this difference? A problem? Perhaps not. To have been Belshazzar, King of Babylon; and to have been Belshazzar, not haughtily but courteously, therein certainly must have been some touch of mundane grandeur. But he who in the rightly regal and intelligent spirit presides over his own private dinner-table of invited guests, that man's unchallenged power and dominion of individual influence for the time; that man's royalty of state transcends Belshazzar's, for Belshazzar was not the greatest. Who has but once dined his friends, has tasted what it is to be Caesar. It is a witchery of social czarship which there is no withstanding. Now, if to this consideration you super-add the official supremacy of a ship-master, then, by inference, you will derive the cause of that peculiarity of sea-life just mentioned.

Over his ivory-inlaid table, Ahab presided like a mute, maned sea-lion on the white coral beach, surrounded by his war-like but still deferential cubs. In his own proper turn, each officer waited to be served. They were as little children before Ahab; and yet, in Ahab, there seemed not to lurk the smallest social arrogance. With one mind, their intent eyes all fastened upon the old man's knife, as he carved the chief dish before him. I do not suppose that for the world they would have profaned that moment with the slightest observation, even upon so neutral a topic as the weather. No! And when reaching out his knife and fork, between which the slice of beef was locked, Ahab thereby motioned Starbuck's plate towards him, the mate received his meat as though receiving alms; and cut it tenderly; and a little started if, perchance, the knife grazed against the plate; and chewed it noiselessly; and swallowed it, not without circumspection. For, like the Coronation banquet at Frankfort, where the German Emperor profoundly dines with the seven imperial electors, so these cabin meals were somehow solemn meals, eaten in awful silence; and yet at table old Ahab forbade not conversation; only he himself was dumb. What a relief it was to choking Stubb, when a rat made a sudden racket in the hold below. And poor little Flask, he was the youngest son, and little boy of this weary family party. His were the shin-bones of the saline beef; his would have been the drumsticks. For Flask to have presumed to help himself, this must have seemed to him tantamount to larceny in the first degree. Had he helped himself at the table, doubtless, never more would he have been able to hold his head up in this honest world; nevertheless, strange to say, Ahab never forbade him. And had Flask helped himself, the chances were Ahab had never so much as noticed it. Least of all, did Flask presume to help himself to butter. Whether he thought the owners of the ship denied it to him, on account of its clotting his clear, sunny complexion; or whether he deemed that, on so long a voyage in such marketless waters, butter was at a premium, and therefore was not for him, a subaltern; however it was, Flask, alas! was a butterless man!

It's an interesting little scene.  Ahab presiding over the dinner table like some abusive father, everyone afraid to speak or do anything that smacks of independence.  And poor Flask, the least among them, stuck with the leftovers, without so much as butter for his biscuit.  Fear overruling all impulses, including hunger.

Ahab sort of reminds me of a very wealthy man, now long dead, from my home town.  When I was a high school senior, I received a scholarship that was named after him.  It was customary that the two recipients of this scholarship--the valedictorian and salutatorian of the graduating class--would meet with this man one morning, have pictures taken with him for the newspaper, and then be treated to breakfast.

When I showed up at this man's place of business, he was surrounded by a whole crew of adults.  The principal of the high school.  The vice president of the man's company.  A newspaper reporter and photographer.  Nobody was talking.  They had smiles plastered on their faces, and they seemed to be waiting for the man, who was seated at a desk, to say or do something.

I quickly sized up the situation.  Here was a man who liked people to be uncomfortable in his presence.  Liked the power that came along with his extreme wealth (he was a millionaire many times over).  I saw some empty chairs directly in front of the man's desk, and, being very young and unimpressed by this kind of bullying, I walked up to a chair and sat down.  The man stared at me, and I stared back at him, not letting my gaze drop.

I knew the man was not going to rescind the scholarship.  That would court bad publicity, especially considering members of the local media were already present.  I also knew that I wasn't going to spend the next two hours in uncomfortable silence.  So, I reached out, stuck my hand in the man's face, and thanked him for the scholarship.

He looked at my hand as if I was some diseased leper for several moments, and then he reached out and shook my hand.  Not firmly.  He said some form of "you're welcome," and then people went into action.  They lined us up for the picture.  Told us all to smile.  The man remained seated at his desk, from what I remember, so we all sort of crowded around him, like grandkids flocking around a grandparent in a wheelchair for a Christmas picture.  The man handed us checks.  Then we went out to breakfast.

Of course, at the restaurant, which was chosen by the man, the silence continued at the table.  The man ordered his meal first, of course.  Then the adults.  Then my classmate and myself.  People were ordering light meals, that didn't cost a whole lot of money.  I ordered something large and expensive.  During the breakfast, there were a lot of knives and forks clattering against plates.  Not a whole lot of conversation.  So I started talking.

Again, I don't remember the details of the conversation I initiated.  At the time, my classmate and I were in rehearsals for the senior class play, so I imagine we talked quite a bit about that.  It was Thornton Wilder's Our Town, and I was playing the Stage Manager.  My classmate was playing either Mrs. Webb or Mrs. Gibbs.  I don't remember.  But I wasn't going to pass an entire hour in complete silence, watching a rich man sop up egg yolk with his toast.

And then it was over.  I left the restaurant with a check in my pocket and dignity intact.

I refuse to be made to feel inferior to anyone, especially because I don't have money or the right social position.  Nobody should have to put up with that.  My dad worked hard for over 50 years, fixing people's blocked sewers, installing toilets and water heaters.  He treated his customers with respect and kindness, whether they were millionaires or unemployed and on disability.

In this way, Saint Marty takes after his father, and Saint Marty is thankful for that.


Wednesday, August 16, 2017

August 16: Silver Boots, Unstuck in Time, My Dad

The temperature climbed startlingly that day.  The noontime was balmy.  The Germans brought soup and bread in two-wheeled carts which were pulled by Russians.  The Englishman sent over real coffee and sugar and marmalade and cigarettes and cigars, and the doors of the theater were left open, so the warmth could get in.

The Americans began to feel much better.  They were able to hold their food.  and then it was time to go to Dresden.  The Americans marched fairly stylishly out of the British compound.  Billy Pilgrim again led the parade.  He had silver boots now, and a muff, and a piece of azure curtain which he wore like a toga.  Billy still had a beard.  So did poor old Edgar Derby, who was beside him.  Derby was imagining letters to home, his lips working tremulously:

Dear Margaret--We are leaving for Dresden today.  Don't worry.  It will never be bombed.  It is an open city.  There was an election at noon, and guess what?  And so on.

They came to the prison railroad yard again.  They had arrived on only two cars.  They would depart far more comfortably on four.  They saw the dead hobo again.  He was frozen stiff in the weeds beside the track.  He was in a fetal position, trying even in death to nestle like a spoon with others.  There were no others now.  He was nestling with thin air and cinders.  Somebody had taken his boots.  His bare feet were blue and ivory.  It was all right, somehow, his being dead.  So it goes.

Billy is on his way to Dresden with the other Americans.  He knows what's going to happen.  Edgar Derby facing the firing squad.  The firebombing of the city.  All the death that he will witness. So it goes, as Vonnegut says over and over.

Sometimes I wish I could become a little unstuck in time.  It would make my life simpler.  At the moment, my 90-year-old father is in the hospital.  One of my sisters took him to the ER this morning.  I'm not going to get into details, but he's going to there for a while.  Tomorrow, he will be transferred to another facility.  Most likely downstate in Alpena. 

He's angry about his situation.  My dad has always been a difficult man.  He can be belligerent.  Sometimes physical.  A couple times today, he tried to walk out of the hospital on his own, only to be escorted back.  He's resting now, after a really bad couple of days. 

If I were Billy Pilgrim, I would know how all this is going to turn out.  I would be able to jump back to family vacations in Gay, Michigan, on the shores of Lake Superior, when I was a kid.  Or the time my dad came to see me play the Stage Manager in Thorton Wilder's Our Town in high school.  Or a few months into the future, so that I would know how all this is going to turn out. 

Unfortunately, I am not unstuck in time.  I have to take it one day at a time, just like everybody else, and hope and pray for the best.

Saint Marty is thankful tonight for compassionate nurses and doctors.


Thursday, January 12, 2017

January 12: Gone Forever, Emily, Disappear into Memory

Billy was working on his second letter when the first letter was published.  The second letter started out like this:

"The most important thing I learned on Tralfamadore was that when a person dies he only appears to die.  He is still very much alive in the past, so it is very silly for people to cry at his funeral.  All moments, past, present, and future, always have existed, always will exist.  The Tralfamadorians can look at all the different moments just the way we can look at a stretch of the Rocky Mountains, for instance.  They can see how permanent all the moments are, and they can look at any moment that  interests them.  It is just an illusion we have here on Earth that one moment follows another one, like beads on a string, and that once a moment is gone it is gone forever.

"When a Tralfamadorian sees a corpse, all he thinks is that the dead person is in bad condition in that particular moment, but that the same person is just fine in plenty of other moments.  Now, when I myself hear that somebody is dead, I simply shrug and say what the Tralfamadorians say about dead people, which is 'So it goes.'"

There's something very comforting about the Tralfamadorian concept of time.  The idea that death is not an end, but just another moment in a person's life that exists alongside birth and graduations and weddings and car accidents and first kisses.  And they all can be revisited, re-enjoyed, re-experienced.

It sort of reminds me of the end of the play Our Town, where Emily dies and decides to return to a moment in her life.  A small, insignificant moment.  A birthday.  What Emily learns is that human beings are completely oblivious.  We are distracted by small, insignificant problems--sour milk, ingrown toenails, pimples, flat tires.  These things get in the way.  Instead of seeing each other, we see the splinters in our fingers instead.

I'm just as guilty as the next person.  Tonight, I will spend my time writing blog posts, checking out Facebook.  My kids will be playing on their Nintendos.  My wife will probably lie down in bed.  We will all be in our own little worlds, focusing on our own needs and wants.  And we probably won't really look at or talk to each other all night long.

If I was from Tralfamadore, it wouldn't matter.  Tomorrow, I could travel back to tonight or last week or this past Christmas.  I could take a trip to four years ago, when my sister and brother were still alive.  Or eight years ago, when my son was born.  If I wanted to, I could go see Lily Tomlin on Broadway again sixteen years ago.  Go trick-or-treating in Detroit, see Star Wars for the first time again.

But I am not Tralfamadorian.  I'm human.  Tonight will come and go.  Disappear into memory.  The only record I will have of this moment is this blog post, these words.  Frozen in the ether of the Internet.  Waiting to be plucked like a ripe plum by some visiting alien.

Greetings from the planet of Saint Marty.

Full moon rising  over the Planet of Saint Marty