Showing posts with label pissed off. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pissed off. Show all posts

Saturday, January 10, 2026

January 10, 2026: New Year, Renee Nicole Good, “They Shoot Poets, Don’t They?”

Greetings, disciples!

Welcome to a new year of Saint Marty.  I have not dropped off the face of the earth.  I have been recuperating from a lengthy holiday illness, and, to be honest, overwhelmed by the state of my country and the world in, general.

Now that the year of Sharon Olds is over for the blog, I will be announcing 2026’s featured poet in the next post.  She is a writer whom I’ve admired for years, and I’m sure you’ll fall in love with her, as well.

Speaking of poets, I, of course, have been so sad and angry and outraged by the murder of Renee Nicole Good in Minneapolis.  I never thought I’d live to see the day that a masked, armed federal agent would be able to shoot an innocent citizen in the face and walk away free.  A poet friend of mine sent me a text yesterday:

Jesus, Marty, Renee Good was one of us.  Poet, parent, liberal.  She could have been me or you . . . and some son of a bitch given a license to kill by [47] shot her three fucking times because she was fleeing his violent little children’s game.  I’m really pissed off.

Yes, Renee Good was a poet, mother, and wife.  She loved her family and neighbors.  And, like most poets I know, she was trying to make the world a better, safer, more loving place.  Like my friend, I am truly pissed off.  I’ve been drowning in a whirlpool of emotions these past few days.

And, like most poets I know, when I am overcome by tragedy or anger, I turn to words to try to sort out my emotions.

Her name was Renee Nicole Good, and Saint Marty honors her tonight , , , 

They Shoot Poets, Don’t They?

by: Martin Achatz

for Renee Nicole Good

Stop.  Just stop.
Stop being angry or outraged.
Stop jamming fingers or guns in faces.
Look into those faces instead, white or brown,
into those eyes, blue or brown, see
what you can’t see when whistles
scream in your ears, when tear gas
makes your eyes and noses weep.
See a mother who drives
her six-year-old son to school,
shoves his stuffed T-Rex into 
the glovebox so it’s there to greet
him at the end of the day.  See
a wife who needs to pick up
toilet paper and cheese and ketchup
from Kroger.  See a neighbor
who drops off a pan of lasagna
when the man next door loses
his 55-year-old spouse in the middle
of the night to a heart attack.  And
see a poet who sends words out 
into the universe, watches them dip, 
swirl, circle, away and away, 
pollinating, spreading, wildflowering 
until everyone is honeyed in beauty.




Sunday, October 19, 2025

October 19, 2025: “Dear Heart,” Protest, “No Kings Day Canticle”

Greetings, faithful disciples!

It has been quite the weekend.  One of the largest, one-day protests in U.S. history occurred yesterday—No Kings.  Of course, those in power are trying to turn it into some kind of January 6-like insurrection.  It wasn’t.  We gathered, held signs, chanted slogans, sang, danced, high-fived inflatable unicorns.

Of course, the question is:  will it make a difference?

My answer is:  I don’t know.

However, simply sitting back and letting the United States of America become the Third Reich Part Two isn’t an option for any clear-thinking, intelligent citizen.  We must stand up, speak out, regardless of the consequences.  The U.S. Constitution gives us that right, until the justices of the Supreme Court decide to turn that document into a roll of Charmin.

But I can’t tell you how or if this will all end.  I just watched a video about the Doomsday Clock.  Now, this little symbol has been in existence since about 1940, and it represents the “estimated likelihood of a human-made global catastrophe.”  Currently, that clock now stands at 89 seconds to midnight (due to ongoing threats from nuclear weapons, climate change, bio weapons, and technologies like AI).  That means that the world is less than 90 geologic seconds away from total annihilation.  

And what happens when civilization as we know it ends?  Well, if history is any indication, something new will be born.

Sharon Olds writes about rebirth . . . 

Dear Heart,

by: Sharon Olds

How did you know to turn me over,
then, when I couldn’t know to take
the moment to turn and start to begin
to finish, I was out there, far ahead
of my body, far ahead of the earth,
ahead of the moon—like someone on the other
side of the moon, stepped off, facing space, I was
floating out there, splayed, facing
away, fucked, fucked, my face
glistening and distorted pressed against the inner
caul of the world.  I was almost beyond
pleasure, in a region of icy, absolute
sensing, my open mouth and love-slimed
cheeks stretching the membrane the way
the face of the almost born can appear, still
veiled in its casing, just inside
the oval portal, pausing, about
to split its glistering mask—you eased me
back, drew me back into the human
night, you turned me and the howling slowed, and at the
crux of our joining, flower heads grew
fast-motion against you, swelled and burst without
tearing—ruinless death, each
sepal, each petal, came to the naught
of earth, our portion, in ecstasy, ash
to fire to ash, dust to bloom to dust.



It’s a very dense poem.  I remember reading and rereading it several times when I first encountered it in graduate school.  Sure, it’s about the pleasure of sex and the speaker’s need to be drawn back from the ether of ecstasy.  But, mostly, the poem is about love and desire and bodily autonomy.  Being in control (or not in control) of your own happiness and pleasure.

Of course, we know that female autonomy is not a high priority for the current people in power in Washington, D.C.  So, we have protests and marches and petitions and, eventually (hopefully?), elections.  That’s what yesterday was all about.  Taking power away from leaders whose only aim is protecting the ultra-wealthy and disenfranchising as many of the poor/middle class as possible.

I’m not trying to convert anyone here.  If you’re Republican and you’re happy, clap your hands, as the old children’s song goes.  And if you’re Democrat and you’re pissed off, clap your hands.  I have friends on both sides of the political spectrum.  I don’t care, as long as their beliefs don’t start infringing on my rights.

If you’re a MAGA Republican, go paint your bedroom walls with swastikas.  If you’re a Bernie Sanders democratic socialist, let me know where to sign up for universal healthcare.  

Saint Marty wrote a poem about yesterday’s protests, based on the following prompt from October 18 of The Daily Poet:

In 1892, New York and Chicago were connected for the first time by a long-distance telephone line.  For this poem, we’re going to do a poetic play on the kids’ “Telephone Game” where you whisper something to one person in a circle and watch it change as it moves from child to child.  Write a first line to a poem about anything you like.  Now take this line and morph it a bit; that line will become the first line of your second stanza.  For example, if you wrote,” I dream in color about cantaloupes,” your next line might be, “I dream in color, but can’t elope.”  Now take that new second line and morph it a bit more.  This will be the first line of your third stanza.  Continue to do this two more times, so you have five similar (but different!) lines, write a poem where each of these lines begins each of your five stanzas.

No Kings Day Canticle

by:  Martin Achatz

We line the highway with signs and unicorns,
raise our arms, shout as if we’re being called
at a tent revival to accept Jesus as our savior,
because this is what democracy looks like, crowded
with wheelchairs, dancing frogs, strollers, and drag queens.

We find the highway with signs and unique horns,
set up camp, listen to Pete Seegers enjoin
us about overcoming hand-in-hand,
Dylans growl about blowing winds, Guthries 
walking that ribbon, that golden valley.

Be kind, the skyway pines and forlorns
on this bright day when freedom fills
the air like the smell of popcorn
at a movie theater, making us all
hungry for its buttery promise.

Be mindful of why they whine, scorn
our flags and chants, the torches we
hold high as Emma Lazarus did
for the exhausted, the penniless who
crossed the sea to these stolen lands.

We blind fools cry and mourn
for the good old days when racism
hid under sheets, behind badges.
Maybe, just maybe, that’s the problem:
we never threw out our whips and chains.



Saturday, August 29, 2015

August 28: Twisted and Contorted, Cost of Love, Wendell Berry, "A Meeting in a Part," Adventures of Stickman

"I don't know what happens when you die, but, I can tell you, whatever goes on is painful, because her face was all twisted and contorted:  it was as if she had to pay dearly to come to me, even for a few moments, as if it were a tremendous burden; as if she was violating something or breaking a law."  And then his [Ramirez's] voice changed and frightened Ives.  "Can you imagine what it was for Christ to come back for so long a period of time when He rose from the dead and went to visit His apostles?"

Ives' best friend, Ramirez, is not a religious man.  He doesn't go to church like Ives.  Doesn't pray and talk about forgiveness and God's love.  Ramirez is a hard man.  A bully to his son.  An adulterer to his wife.  Yet, near the end of the book, after his beloved wife dies, Ramirez is visited by her ghost, and it is a terrifying vision of suffering and torment.  She stands by his bed in anguish to simply tell him Te amo, marido--"I love you, husband."

It's not a very comforting passage.  The ghosts of loved ones aren't supposed to suffer in order to bring comfort to the living.  I think that's why I find this little passage so compelling.  Even in the afterlife, the cost of love is huge.  Painful.

My wife read me a little quote last night about how anger fits into the grieving process.  Basically, it said that anger is natural.  The grieving should welcome it.  Feel it.  Work through it.  So, basically, I'm allowed to be mad.  Pissed off.  Furious.  The quote also said that the stronger the anger is, the stronger the love for the person who's gone.

That makes sense to me.  Love is painful, as demonstrated by Ramirez's story.  In death and life, love can break your soul.  Yet, I wouldn't want to live my life without love.  I know that I'm sounding a little Oprah-ish.  However, I really do believe that love is what brings meaning into my life.  My wife.  Kids.  Sisters.  Brothers.  In-laws.  Friends.

My nephew had a dream about my sister shortly after she passed away.  In the dream, my sister and nephew played video games together.  She told him, "I have to go soon."  All the kids joined them, and they laughed and gamed together, like old times.  Finally, it was time for my sister to leave.  She told my nephew, "I love you all."  Then, she disappeared in a golden light.  My nephews says the dream brought him a great deal of peace.

Tomorrow, we will have the visitation at the funeral home.  On Sunday, the funeral Mass and lunch.  There will be tension and weirdness.  Tears and laughter.  Anger and hugs.  Pain and maybe a little peace.  When family gets together, that's what happens.

In some way, this whole summer has been one long goodbye.

Saint Marty is still waiting for his dream.

(Sorry, no fairy tale tonight.  We'll return to our normal programming next week.)

A Meeting in a Part

by:  Wendell Berry

In a dream I meet
my dead friend. He has,
I know, gone long and far,
and yet he is the same
for the dead are changeless.
They grow no older.
It is I who have changed,
grown strange to what I was.
Yet I, the changed one,
ask: "How you been?"
He grins and looks at me.
"I been eating peaches
off some mighty fine trees."

Adventures of STICKMAN


Friday, September 19, 2014

September 19: Look Radiant, Being Myself, Golden Fairy Tale

It is not easy to look radiant, but Wilbur threw himself into it with a will.  He would turn his head slightly and blink his long eye-lashes.  Then he would breathe deeply.  And when his audience grew bored, he would spring into the air and do a back flip with a half twist.  At this the crowd would yell and cheer.  "How's that for a pig?" Mr. Zuckerman would ask, well pleased with himself.  "That pig is radiant."

Wilbur has to force himself to be radiant for the visiting crowds.  Back flips and half twists.  He knows his life depends upon it.  He must convince Zuckerman that he is special, that he can contribute more to the life of the farm than a slab of back and a Christmas ham.  So he puts on a show.

I know how Wilbur feels.  Every day, I paste a smile on my face, joke with patients, collect money for the healthcare organization for which I work, and try to remain positive and upbeat.  It's not easy at times.  Today, for instance.  I did not feel very compassionate or kind.  People irritated me.  Yet I answered phones, registered patients, and tried to look radiant, like Wilbur.

Tonight, I'm all smiled out.  I've used up my daily supply of goodwill.  Thank goodness I'm alone right now.  No noise.  No TV.  Just the click-click-click of the clock on the wall and the tap-tap-tap of my fingers on the keyboard.  Anything beyond that would push me over the edge.

Once upon a time, a misanthrope named Hugh lived in a tent on the top of a mountain.  Hugh did not like people.  In fact, when family members came to visit him, he threw pine cones at them and called them names like "dumbhead" and "picklenose."

One day, a wizard, disguised as a beggar, came to his tent.  The wizard cried out, "Oh, please help me.  I haven't eaten in a week, and the arches of my feet have fallen."

Hugh opened the flap of his tent and threw the contents of his chamber pot in the wizard's face, yelling, "Piss off."

The wizard stood there, drenched in urine.  Then, he took out his wand and said the magic words, "Cow patties!"

Seven-hundred-and-fifty pounds of cow manure fell out of the sky onto Hugh's tent, instantly killing Hugh.

Moral of the story:  it's better to be pissed off than pissed on.

And Saint Marty lived happily ever after.

Watch where you're aiming that thing