Showing posts with label passenger pigeon. Show all posts
Showing posts with label passenger pigeon. Show all posts

Saturday, August 12, 2017

August 12: A Good Place, Walt Whitman, "A March in the Ranks Hard-Prest, and the Road Unknown"

It is the weekend--days when I try to set aside the worries and pressures of the week for a little while.  Breakfast with my family.  Church tonight.  Pizza for dinner.  I love the pace of these days, when I don't have to rush and the hours spread out in front of me like lawns of August dandelions.

I try to avoid newspapers and news shows, in general, on Saturdays and Sundays.  Give myself a break from politics and disasters and wars.  I'm not sticking my head in the sand.  I'm simply allowing my brain to relax a little bit.  I know that, on Monday, Donald Trump will still be President of the United States, and that he will have said something that will leave me dumbfounded or insanely angry.  I know that the threat of nuclear war will be a mushroom cloud on the horizon.

However, Saint Marty will take the next two days to pretend that the world is a good place.  A kind place.  A place that doesn't need armies and poverty has gone the way of the passenger pigeon.  A place that's safe for my kids and my kids' kids.

A March in the Ranks Hard-Prest, and the Road Unknown

by:  Walt Whitman

A march in the ranks hard-prest, and the road unknown,
A route through a heavy wood with muffled steps in the darkness,
Our army foil’d with loss severe, and the sullen remnant retreating,
Till after midnight glimmer upon us the lights of a dim-lighted building,
We come to an open space in the woods, and halt by the dim-lighted building,
’Tis a large old church at the crossing roads, now an impromptu hospital
Entering but for a minute I see a sight beyond all the pictures and poems ever made,
Shadows of deepest, deepest black, just lit by moving candles and lamps,
And by one great pitchy torch stationary with wild red flame and clouds of smoke,
By these, crowds, groups of forms vaguely I see on the floor, some in the pews laid down,
At my feet more distinctly a soldier, a mere lad, in danger of bleeding to death, (he is shot in the abdomen,)
I stanch the blood temporarily, (the youngster’s face is white as a lily,)
Then before I depart I sweep my eyes o’er the scene fain to absorb it all,
Faces, varieties, postures beyond description, most in obscurity, some of them dead,
Surgeons operating, attendants holding lights, the smell of ether, the odor of blood,
The crowd, O the crowd of the bloody forms, the yard outside also fill’d,
Some on the bare ground, some on planks or stretchers, some in the death-spasm sweating,
An occasional scream or cry, the doctor’s shouted orders or calls,
The glisten of the little steel instruments catching the glint of the torches,
These I resume as I chant, I see again the forms, I smell the odor,
Then hear outside the orders given, Fall in, my men, fall in;
But first I bend to the dying lad, his eyes open, a half-smile gives he me,
Then the eyes close, calmly close, and I speed forth to the darkness,
Resuming, marching, ever in darkness marching, on in the ranks,
The unknown road still marching.

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

August 2: Mourning Dove, Keith Taylor, "The Last Resort"

This morning, as I was typing this post, a mourning dove landed on the railing of my balcony.  I watched it strut back and forth, raise its tail, shit on the iron ledge.  Then it turned, looked at me a few moments, and flew off.


And I was the intruder in that little scene.  That dove was doing what mourning doves have been doing for centuries.  I, with my laptop computer and bottled water, am a tiny blip on the epochal map.  A melting glacier.  A Carolina parakeet.  Great auk.  Passenger pigeon.

Saint Marty is on the road to extinction, like every other living thing.

The Last Roost

by:  Keith Taylor

There's a record written years later:
up in Emmett County, after months
of slaughter--50,000 a day
sent to Chicago--the passenger
pigeons rose in their last flock, circled
over Lake Michigan, terrified
of land, and finally exhausted
rested, relieved perhaps, in water.


Wednesday, May 20, 2015

May 20: New Expenses, Part-Time Dreams, Dodo

Once settled in, Ives decided, having so many new expenses, to find a full-time job, and eventually began his long tenure with the Mannis Advertising Agency...

Working in advertising was not Ives' dream.  He wanted to be a serious artist, with paintings hanging in MoMA and the Met.  He wanted to draw for Disney, with his creations on kids' shirts and cereal bowls.  Yet, Ives has a wife and kids that he has to support, so he settles.  He takes a job that pays the bills and provides health insurance and paid vacations.  He never becomes Picasso.

My medical office job is a lot like Ives' job at the Mannis Advertising Agency.  It started out as a part-time gig while I was in graduate school, getting my MFA.  I was filling in for a woman out on maternity leave.  The woman never came back.  Part-time turned into full-time turned into 17 years.  It wasn't my dream to have a career in the medical field.  It still isn't my dream.  I've settled.  For my wife and kids.  For stability.  For a home.

I still have dreams of becoming a famous writer.  That's why I write this blog every day.  It keeps my dream alive somehow.  I know people are reading my words.  Maybe people are even being moved by what I post.  I write poems and essays.  I conduct writing workshops for community school programs.  I volunteer to teach poetry to elementary school students.

I do all these things because to not do them would mean that I have given up.  That my dreams have gone the way of the passenger pigeon and dodo.  I'm not quite ready for that.  I don't want my epitaph to be "Professional Clinic Office Clerk."  I would much prefer "Poet" or "Teacher" or "Thinker" or "Dreamer."  I could live with any of those titles.

Saint Marty doesn't want to be a dodo.

I wonder if he dreamed of being an ostrich