Showing posts with label gift of words. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gift of words. Show all posts

Monday, July 10, 2017

July 10: That was I, War is Shit, Albert Einstein

Billy looked inside the latrine.  The wailing was coming from in there.  The place was crammed with Americans who had taken their pants down.  The welcome feast had made them as sick as volcanoes.  The buckets were full or had been kicked over.

An American near Billy wailed that he had excreted everything but his brains.  Moments later he said, "There they go, there they go."  He meant his brains.

That was I.  That was me.  That was the author of this book.

Billy reeled away from his vision of Hell.  He passed three Englishmen who were watching the excrement festival from a distance.  They were catatonic with disgust.

"Button your pants!" said one as Billy went by.

So Billy buttoned his pants.  He came to the door of the little hospital by accident.  He went through the door, and found himself honeymooning again, going from the bathroom back to bed with his bride on Cape Ann.

"I missed you," said Valencia.

"I missed you," said Billy Pilgrim.

You will excuse me if I don't provide an extended commentary on this little latrine scene.  I am sort of like the three Englishmen catatonic with disgust.  I have never been able to deal with human excrement that well.  Did it with my children.  Not going to do it again until I have grandchildren, which I hope will not be for a long while.

The part of this little passage that I find most interesting is Vonnegut breaking the fictional wall and inserting himself into the story.  That sort of fascinates me, as if somehow it lends a certain truth to the narrative of Billy Pilgrim.  It's almost as if Vonnegut is saying, "Just in case you think all this shit is made-up, here I am."  Vonnegut's presence also echoes back through the rest of the war passages.  The most horrendous parts of Slaughterhouse are thereby made fact.

So Slaughterhouse isn't just science fiction or historical fiction or literary fiction.  It's all of those things.  But it's also a historical document, detailing the end of World War II from the perspective of an American prisoner of war.  Vonnegut is laying the groundwork for the upcoming bombing of Dresden.  He doesn't want anybody to mistake what he has to say about war as a flight of imagination.  It's not.  War is shit, literally and metaphorically.

That's not necessarily a new or profound statement.  We can trace that little kernel of wisdom all the way back to Homer.  Where Vonnegut breaks new ground is in his views on the inevitability of war and death.  Nothing is new.  Human beings will harm other human beings, no matter what.  It has happened, is happening, will happen again.  There's no escaping it.  So it goes.

I, myself, like to be a little more hopeful that the human race will eventually break this cycle.  The current state of the world is not really bolstering this hope at the moment.  At the moment, Vonnegut's views on time and war and violence seem to be winning.  At least in the United States.  But I am not giving up just yet.

Albert Einstein once said, "We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them."  So, extending Einstein into Vonnegut, we have to know about the mistakes we've made in the past in order to avoid them in the future.  Vonnegut documents war in order, perhaps, to sound an alarm (and hope) for the future.  At least, that's the way I read him.

Tomorrow morning, I head out on a little poetry reading trip to the east end of the Upper Peninsula.  I think that is an act of hope.  Any time truth is spoken, in any form--poetry, fiction, science fiction--the world is made a little better.

Saint Marty is thankful tonight for the gift of words.


Wednesday, February 5, 2014

February 5: Podcasts, In the Shadows, Quiet Gratitude

As I cleaned my house this evening, I decided to listen to podcasts from my local Public Radio station.  For the past five years, I've written a Christmas essay for the station's holiday programming.  Once I'd recorded these essays for broadcast, I never really thought about them again.  I knew they were put on the air, but I never paid attention to dates or times.

Tonight, while I was scrubbing down the toilet and bathtub, I listened to all five of my Christmas podcasts.  I wanted to see if they were any good.  I have enough distance now from the writing to approach them objectively.  I have always been my own harshest critic.

At the end of Charlotte's Web, Charlotte spins one last word into her web.  That word is "humble."  As a crowd gathers to admire her work, an announcement is made over the loudspeakers at the Fair Grounds about a special award to be given to Wilbur, and the little spider knows she's saved her friend's life:

Up overhead, in the shadows of the ceiling, Charlotte crouched unseen, her front legs encircling her egg sac.  Her heart was not beating as strongly as usual and she felt weary and old, but she was sure at last that she had saved Wilbur's life, and she felt peaceful and contented.

Charlotte draws no attention to herself or her accomplishments.  She's simply at peace now that she knows Wilbur is safe and will live a long life.  She's content to sit in the shadows and watch the results of her efforts.


After listening to the podcasts of my Christmas this evening, I can say with great conviction and humility that they're all pretty damn good.  Not a stinker in the batch.  I know there's not a whole lot of humility in what I just typed, but I'm not a spring pig and my best friend isn't an arachnid.  If Charlotte were to weave something into her web to describe me, it would go something like this:  "He's a pretty damn decent writer."

Quiet gratitude.  That's what Charlotte is feeling in the above passage, and it's what I'm feeling this evening.  I'm thankful for writing in my life.  Essays and poems.  An occasional short story.  Though it doesn't put money in my pockets or food in my fridge, I'm thankful for words.

Listen to some of Saint Marty's words:

Anatomy of a Christmas Poem

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

January 21: Working, Weaving, and Praying

I'm watching a documentary on PBS about J. D. Salinger at the moment.  The thing that strikes me about him is that he worked all the dime.  Writing was his life.  It gave him meaning, helped him understand who he was.  Salinger stopped publishing in 1965.  But he kept writing.  Every day.  For over 40 years.

I aspire to write daily.  It's one of the reasons I blog.  Blogging is my excuse.  After I've registered surgical patients, after I've taught at the university, after I've gotten my son to bed, I sit down, open up my laptop, and start to type.  I used to blog in the early morning.  Right now, my habit is to work at night, like Charlotte:

Charlotte tore quite a section out of her web, leaving an open space in the middle.  Then she started weaving something to take the place of the threads she had removed.  When Templeton got back from the dump, around midnight, the spider was still at work.

I don't always write things of worth.  In fact, I rarely accomplish more than laying bare my insecurities and worries.  That doesn't always make for compelling reading.  It makes for whining and angst and melancholy.  You know, writerly preoccupations.

I'm not writing whining tonight.  Tonight, I want to offer a little prayer for the work I do.

Dear Lord of Labor,

Bless these words I'm typing.  Let them do the work they need to do.  I don't know who's reading them.  I don't know what impact they're having, if any at all.  But let the work be good.  Let the words be good.  And give me the gift of words again tomorrow.

Your loving child,

Saint Marty

Salinger worked the words