Showing posts with label Pep Band. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pep Band. Show all posts

Monday, February 18, 2019

February 18: Some Peanuts, In Between Teaching, Parents' Night

Ford has saved Arthur's life, although Arthur does not know that yet . . .

He heard a slight groan.  By the light of the match he saw a heavy shape moving slightly on the floor.  Quickly he shook the match out, reached in his pocket, found what he was looking for and took it out.  He ripped it open and shook it.  He crouched on the floor.  The shape moved again.

Ford Prefect said, "I bought some peanuts."

Arthur Dent moved, and groaned again, muttering incoherently.

"Here, have some," urged Ford, shaking the packet again, "if you've never been through a matter transference beam before you've probably lost some salt and protein.  The beer you had should have cushioned your system a bit."

I sort of feel as though I've been through a matter transference beam right now.  I'm starving.  In need of some salt and protein.  In between classes at the moment, gulping down some dinner in my office at the university.  It's one of those nights where I simply don't have a whole lot of time to be thoughtful with my post.  I spent most of the day at the medical office sorting through patient charts, getting them ready for either storage or shredding.  This afternoon, it was mythology--hero myths.  Perseus.  Hercules.  Jason.  Ulysses.  Tonight, composition--poetry analysis papers, among other things.

Because of teaching tonight, I am going to miss something at my daughter's school--parents' night at the basketball game.  That's when the seniors of the basketball team and the pep band are recognized with their parents.  I have been attending parents' nights for three years, knowing that, some day, I would be standing down on the gym floor with my daughter.

As you can tell, I'm not going to be at the basketball game.  Won't be there for my daughter's last pep band performance.  Instead, I'm going to be in a classroom, trying to teach college students how not to plagiarize.  That kind of makes me sad.  I'm not much of an organized sports kind of guy.  Couldn't care less who wins the game tonight.  But I do love hearing and seeing my daughter play in the band.  I'm going to miss that when she graduates.

That's where my mind is tonight.  Not in this post.  Not in the classroom.  It's in the gymnasium at my daughter's school.  I've actually been saying a few prayers that something would happen to either cancel classes tonight at the university or postpone the basketball game.  It appears that neither of those things are going to be happening.

Saint Marty will just have to be satisfied with the knowledge that his daughter will be missing him greatly.  (There's sarcasm in that statement, if you can't tell.)


Tuesday, January 24, 2017

January 24: Smelled Like Bacon, Basketball Game, Hester Prynne

Roland Weary was only eighteen, was at the end of an unhappy childhood spent mostly in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.  He had been unpopular in Pittsburgh.  He had been unpopular because he was stupid and fat and mean, and smelled like bacon no matter how much he washed.  He was always being ditched in Pittsburgh by people who did not want him with them.

It made Weary sick to be ditched.  When Weary was ditched, he would find somebody who was even more unpopular than himself, and he would horse around with that person for a while, pretending to be friendly.  And then he would find some pretext for beating the shit out of him.  

That's a frightening little description of Roland Weary, but it could probably be applied to a whole lot of kids in our public school system.  Alienated and weird and alone.  Vonnegut doesn't cut Weary any slack, though--he's "stupid and fat and mean."  Of course, Roland's dealing with some family stuff that pushes him in the direction of meanness, but his story is pretty common, I think.  He's weak, so he victimizes people who seem weaker than he is, including Billy Pilgrim.

I think that, at one time or another in our lives, we've all been a little bit like Roland Weary.  I know I have.  Even as an adult, I find myself in situations where I feel like I don't quite fit in.  For example, tonight I am going to attend a basketball game at my daughter's high school.  I'm going because my daughter plays in the pep band.  Whenever I walk into a gymnasium where a sporting even is taking place, I get a little panicked.  It has to do with the fact that I was always picked last for games of kickball and touch football when I was a kid.  Gym class was an exercise in humiliation.

Those feelings just don't go away.  As I sit in the bleachers tonight, I will be constantly fighting the urge to look over my shoulder to see if anyone is staring at me.  Like I'm some erstwhile Hester Prynne with a scarlet "D" for "dork" emblazoned on my back.  Of course, I can rationalize that I'm an adult now.  I teach at a university.  I've published a book.  To all outward appearances, I've got my shit together. 

However, as soon as I hear those sneakers squeaking on the gym floor this evening, I know the sweaty Roland Weary in the back of my mind will wake up, and I will have to spend a few minutes convincing him to fall back asleep.  I may have to bribe him with some popcorn from the concession stand.

Tonight, Saint Marty is grateful that he is NOT in high school.


Friday, September 23, 2016

September 23: Honeybee, Homecoming, Film Appreciation 101

Now it is early September, and the paths are clogged.  I look to water to see sky.  It is the time of year when a honeybee beats feebly at the inside back window of every parked car.  A frog flies up for every foot of bank, bubbles tangle in a snare of blue-green algae, and Japanese beetles hunch doubled on the willow leaves.  The sun thickens the air to jelly; it bleaches, flattens, dissolves.  The skies are a milky haze--nowhere, do-nothing summer skies.  Every kid I see has a circular grid on his forehead, a regular cross-hatching of straight lines, from spending his days leaning into screen doors.

Many things happen in September.  As Dillard points out, honeybees slow down, end up in car windows.  Skies become milky white.  The sun becomes white and large.  Young people become . . . wistful at the end of summer.  And football games begin on Friday nights.

Tonight was homecoming at my daughter's school.  The air was crisp.  Popcorn and pizza were everywhere.  The cheerleading squads were trying to outshout each other.  My daughter was in the band, and the band was playing as loud as it could.  "Louie Louie" and the school fight song.  Floats were paraded.  A king and queen were crowned.

We left after half-time, when the pep band was done.  The moon was high and bright.  When we got home, it was hot chocolate and pajamas.  Right now, my daughter and I are watching The Social Network.  For the last couple weeks, that's what we've been doing.  I've been picking movies for us to watch.  Like a little father/daughter film club.  Last night, it was Billy Elliot.  Some other recent screenings:  Little Miss Sunshine and The Wonder Boys and Juno.  Call it Film Appreciation 101.  In a day or so, I'm thinking of moving on to Quentin Tarantino.

Homecoming has come and gone.  I am home.  It is late.  The movie just ended, and my daughter went to bed.  September is drawing to a close.  Time to start the countdown.

Twelve more days until Saint Marty's Day.  Time to decorate your Saint Marty's Day tree.

Queen Elizabeth's Saint Marty's Day Card

Friday, September 16, 2016

September 16: Migration of Caribou, Box of Kleenex, Road to Hell

In autumn the winding passage of ravens from the north heralds the great fall migration of caribou...

It is autumn, although I have seen no ravens from the north.  And I certainly didn't see any caribou tonight, although I did see a whole lot of football players running up and down a soggy field.  So, it was sort of like watching the fall migration of caribou.  Don't ask me if the home team won.  My daughter plays in the pep band, and we always leave after she plays during half-time.

Speaking of autumn, the annual fall illness has descended upon my household.  My daughter was out of school for two days this week, and she's still taking antibiotics.  My wife just crawled into bed with a box of Kleenex.  Me?  I'm attempting, for the second time, to watch The Wonder Boys with my daughter.  (For details on my first attempt, refer to last night's second post.)

It's Friday night, if you haven't guessed by the whole football thing.  After nine o'clock, and I still have papers to grade and poems to write.  Hopefully, tomorrow I will be able to get some major work accomplished.  That's my goal, anyway.  Of course, as the saying goes, the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

I always have a lot of good intentions at the beginning of a weekend.  Tonight is like an apple, high on a branch, just waiting to be plucked.  I love Friday nights.  The potential of them.  The whole weekend stretching out before me.  It's one of my favorite times of the week.

Of course, come Sunday, I will have accomplished only half (if I'm lucky) of what I intended to do, and I will be feeling like a failure.

Tonight, however, Saint Marty is an unlit candle.  An uneaten Milky Way.  A pepperoni pizza waiting to be delivered.

Just because I love Bigfoot

Thursday, September 15, 2016

September 15: Puffed Clay, Rising, James Dickey, "Falling"

I am puffed clay, blown up and set down.  That I fall like Adam is not surprising:  I plunge, waft, arc, pour, and dive.  The surprise is how good the wind feels on my face as I fall.  And the other surprise is that I ever rise at all.  I rise when I receive, like grass.

Well, falling is all part of the human condition.  Has been since the time of Adam.  We all fall.  As Dillard says, we plunge, waft, arc, pour, and dive.  And then, of course, after we fall, we pick ourselves up, brush ourselves off, and rise.  That's the great thing about mistakes.  We can, hopefully, fix what we mess up.

Now, dear Constant Reader, you are probably expecting me to admit to some kind of transgression or error.  After all, I started this post with the first fall.  I will say that I didn't accomplish half the things that I was intending to do today.  I have papers to grade.  Poems to write.  Books to read.  I actually corrected two of my students' essays.  After I'm done blogging, I'm going to sit down with my journal, try to finish something I started scribbling a couple of weeks ago.

So, in a way, every day in my life is an exercise in falling.  Will I actually work on my poem?  Maybe.  Will I correct some more essays?  Depends on how tired I am.  If I fall asleep on the couch watching a rebroadcast of the finale of America's Got Talent, I always have tomorrow to try again.  That pretty much describes my life:  try, fail, and try again.

Tomorrow will pretty much be a fall day for me.  I have to go to another football game to listen to my daughter play in the pep band.  Fall.  It's going to be rainy and gross.  Fall-fall.  Whenever I go to a sporting event, I always feel like a balloon at a porcupine convention.  Fall-fall-fall.  But I will enjoy listening and watching my daughter play for the half-time show.  Rise.  My wife will be with me.  Rise.  After half-time, we will leave.  Rise-rise.  And, maybe, we'll stop and get some hot chocolate on the way home.  Rise-rise-rise.

Saint Marty may not know anything about football, but he knows a thing or two about falling and rising.

Falling

by:  James Dickey

A 29-year-old stewardess fell ... to her
death tonight when she was swept
through an emergency door that sud-
denly sprang open ... The body ...
was found ... three hours after the
accident.                                             
                              —New York Times
The states when they black out and lie there rolling    when they turn
To something transcontinental    move by    drawing moonlight out of the great
One-sided stone hung off the starboard wingtip    some sleeper next to
An engine is groaning for coffee    and there is faintly coming in
Somewhere the vast beast-whistle of space. In the galley with its racks
Of trays    she rummages for a blanket    and moves in her slim tailored
Uniform to pin it over the cry at the top of the door. As though she blew

The door down with a silent blast from her lungs    frozen    she is black
Out finding herself    with the plane nowhere and her body taken by the throat
The undying cry of the void    falling    living    beginning to be something
That no one has ever been and lived through    screaming without enough air
Still neat    lipsticked    stockinged    girdled by regulation    her hat
Still on    her arms and legs in no world    and yet spaced also strangely
With utter placid rightness on thin air    taking her time    she holds it
In many places    and now, still thousands of feet from her death she seems
To slow    she develops interest    she turns in her maneuverable body

To watch it. She is hung high up in the overwhelming middle of things in her
Self    in low body-whistling wrapped intensely    in all her dark dance-weight
Coming down from a marvellous leap    with the delaying, dumfounding ease
Of a dream of being drawn    like endless moonlight to the harvest soil
Of a central state of one’s country    with a great gradual warmth coming
Over her    floating    finding more and more breath in what she has been using
For breath    as the levels become more human    seeing clouds placed honestly
Below her left and right    riding slowly toward them    she clasps it all
To her and can hang her hands and feet in it in peculiar ways    and
Her eyes opened wide by wind, can open her mouth as wide    wider and suck
All the heat from the cornfields    can go down on her back with a feeling
Of stupendous pillows stacked under her    and can turn    turn as to someone
In bed    smile, understood in darkness    can go away    slant    slide
Off tumbling    into the emblem of a bird with its wings half-spread
Or whirl madly on herself    in endless gymnastics in the growing warmth
Of wheatfields rising toward the harvest moon.    There is time to live
In superhuman health    seeing mortal unreachable lights far down seeing
An ultimate highway with one late priceless car probing it    arriving
In a square town    and off her starboard arm the glitter of water catches
The moon by its one shaken side    scaled, roaming silver    My God it is good
And evil    lying in one after another of all the positions for love
Making    dancing    sleeping    and now cloud wisps at her no
Raincoat    no matter    all small towns brokenly brighter from inside
Cloud    she walks over them like rain    bursts out to behold a Greyhound
Bus shooting light through its sides    it is the signal to go straight
Down like a glorious diver    then feet first    her skirt stripped beautifully
Up    her face in fear-scented cloths    her legs deliriously bare    then
Arms out    she slow-rolls over    steadies out    waits for something great
To take control of her    trembles near feathers    planes head-down
The quick movements of bird-necks turning her head    gold eyes the insight-
eyesight of owls blazing into the hencoops    a taste for chicken overwhelming
Her    the long-range vision of hawks enlarging all human lights of cars
Freight trains    looped bridges    enlarging the moon racing slowly
Through all the curves of a river    all the darks of the midwest blazing
From above. A rabbit in a bush turns white    the smothering chickens
Huddle    for over them there is still time for something to live
With the streaming half-idea of a long stoop    a hurtling    a fall
That is controlled    that plummets as it wills    turns gravity
Into a new condition, showing its other side like a moon    shining
New Powers    there is still time to live on a breath made of nothing
But the whole night    time for her to remember to arrange her skirt
Like a diagram of a bat    tightly it guides her    she has this flying-skin
Made of garments    and there are also those sky-divers on tv    sailing
In sunlight    smiling under their goggles    swapping batons back and forth
And He who jumped without a chute and was handed one by a diving
Buddy. She looks for her grinning companion    white teeth    nowhere
She is screaming    singing hymns    her thin human wings spread out
From her neat shoulders    the air beast-crooning to her    warbling
And she can no longer behold the huge partial form of the world    now
She is watching her country lose its evoked master shape    watching it lose
And gain    get back its houses and peoples    watching it bring up
Its local lights    single homes    lamps on barn roofs    if she fell
Into water she might live    like a diver    cleaving    perfect    plunge

Into another    heavy silver    unbreathable    slowing    saving
Element: there is water    there is time to perfect all the fine
Points of diving    feet together    toes pointed    hands shaped right
To insert her into water like a needle    to come out healthily dripping
And be handed a Coca-Cola    there they are    there are the waters
Of life    the moon packed and coiled in a reservoir    so let me begin
To plane across the night air of Kansas    opening my eyes superhumanly
Bright    to the damned moon    opening the natural wings of my jacket
By Don Loper    moving like a hunting owl toward the glitter of water
One cannot just fall    just tumble screaming all that time    one must use
It    she is now through with all    through all    clouds    damp    hair
Straightened    the last wisp of fog pulled apart on her face like wool revealing
New darks    new progressions of headlights along dirt roads from chaos

And night    a gradual warming    a new-made, inevitable world of one’s own
Country    a great stone of light in its waiting waters    hold    hold out
For water: who knows when what correct young woman must take up her body
And fly    and head for the moon-crazed inner eye of midwest imprisoned
Water    stored up for her for years    the arms of her jacket slipping
Air up her sleeves to go    all over her? What final things can be said
Of one who starts her sheerly in her body in the high middle of night
Air    to track down water like a rabbit where it lies like life itself
Off to the right in Kansas? She goes toward    the blazing-bare lake
Her skirts neat    her hands and face warmed more and more by the air
Rising from pastures of beans    and under her    under chenille bedspreads
The farm girls are feeling the goddess in them struggle and rise brooding
On the scratch-shining posts of the bed    dreaming of female signs
Of the moon    male blood like iron    of what is really said by the moan
Of airliners passing over them at dead of midwest midnight    passing
Over brush fires    burning out in silence on little hills    and will wake
To see the woman they should be    struggling on the rooftree to become
Stars: for her the ground is closer    water is nearer    she passes
It    then banks    turns    her sleeves fluttering differently as she rolls
Out to face the east, where the sun shall come up from wheatfields she must
Do something with water    fly to it    fall in it    drink it    rise
From it    but there is none left upon earth    the clouds have drunk it back
The plants have sucked it down    there are standing toward her only
The common fields of death    she comes back from flying to falling
Returns to a powerful cry    the silent scream with which she blew down
The coupled door of the airliner    nearly    nearly losing hold
Of what she has done    remembers    remembers the shape at the heart
Of cloud    fashionably swirling    remembers she still has time to die
Beyond explanation. Let her now take off her hat in summer air the contour
Of cornfields    and have enough time to kick off her one remaining
Shoe with the toes    of the other foot    to unhook her stockings
With calm fingers, noting how fatally easy it is to undress in midair
Near death    when the body will assume without effort any position
Except the one that will sustain it    enable it to rise    live
Not die    nine farms hover close    widen    eight of them separate, leaving
One in the middle    then the fields of that farm do the same    there is no
Way to back off    from her chosen ground    but she sheds the jacket
With its silver sad impotent wings    sheds the bat’s guiding tailpiece
Of her skirt    the lightning-charged clinging of her blouse    the intimate
Inner flying-garment of her slip in which she rides like the holy ghost
Of a virgin    sheds the long windsocks of her stockings    absurd
Brassiere    then feels the girdle required by regulations squirming
Off her: no longer monobuttocked    she feels the girdle flutter    shake
In her hand    and float    upward    her clothes rising off her ascending
Into cloud    and fights away from her head the last sharp dangerous shoe
Like a dumb bird    and now will drop in    soon    now will drop

In like this    the greatest thing that ever came to Kansas    down from all
Heights    all levels of American breath    layered in the lungs from the frail
Chill of space to the loam where extinction slumbers in corn tassels thickly
And breathes like rich farmers counting: will come along them after
Her last superhuman act    the last slow careful passing of her hands
All over her unharmed body    desired by every sleeper in his dream:
Boys finding for the first time their loins filled with heart’s blood
Widowed farmers whose hands float under light covers to find themselves
Arisen at sunrise    the splendid position of blood unearthly drawn
Toward clouds    all feel something    pass over them as she passes
Her palms over her long legs    her small breasts    and deeply between
Her thighs    her hair shot loose from all pins    streaming in the wind
Of her body    let her come openly    trying at the last second to land
On her back    This is it    this
                                                          All those who find her impressed
In the soft loam    gone down    driven well into the image of her body
The furrows for miles flowing in upon her where she lies very deep
In her mortal outline    in the earth as it is in cloud    can tell nothing
But that she is there    inexplicable    unquestionable    and remember
That something broke in them as well    and began to live and die more
When they walked for no reason into their fields to where the whole earth
Caught her    interrupted her maiden flight    told her how to lie she cannot
Turn    go away    cannot move    cannot slide off it and assume another
Position    no sky-diver with any grin could save her    hold her in his arms
Plummet with her    unfold above her his wedding silks    she can no longer
Mark the rain with whirling women that take the place of a dead wife
Or the goddess in Norwegian farm girls    or all the back-breaking whores
Of Wichita. All the known air above her is not giving up quite one
Breath    it is all gone    and yet not dead    not anywhere else
Quite    lying still in the field on her back    sensing the smells
Of incessant growth try to lift her    a little sight left in the corner
Of one eye    fading    seeing something wave    lies believing
That she could have made it    at the best part of her brief goddess
State    to water    gone in headfirst    come out smiling    invulnerable
Girl in a bathing-suit ad    but she is lying like a sunbather at the last
Of moonlight    half-buried in her impact on the earth    not far
From a railroad trestle    a water tank    she could see if she could
Raise her head from her modest hole    with her clothes beginning
To come down all over Kansas    into bushes    on the dewy sixth green
Of a golf course    one shoe    her girdle coming down fantastically
On a clothesline, where it belongs    her blouse on a lightning rod:

Lies in the fields    in this field    on her broken back as though on
A cloud she cannot drop through    while farmers sleepwalk without
Their women from houses    a walk like falling toward the far waters
Of life    in moonlight    toward the dreamed eternal meaning of their farms
Toward the flowering of the harvest in their hands    that tragic cost
Feels herself go    go toward    go outward    breathes at last fully
Not    and tries    less    once    tries    tries    ah, god—


Friday, September 2, 2016

September 2: The Enormity, Football Game, Come Get Me

A few days later the monarchs hit.  I saw one, and then another, and then others all day long, before I consciously understood that I was witnessing a migration, and it wasn't until another two weeks had passed that I realized the enormity of what I had seen.

Dillard is right.  None of us really understand it when we see something amazing, whether it's a herd of monarch butterflies or a 104-year-old woman square dancing.  Human beings have such limited visions.  We get up, go to work or school or Walmart, earn or spend some money, come home and eat, watch some TV or read a book, and, eventually, go to bed.  Our day-to-days are pretty day-to-day.  If a miracle happens, it's almost like fitting a square peg in a round hole.  Like Dillard says, it takes two weeks to recognize the enormity of it.

Tonight, I went to a football game to hear my daughter play in the pep band.  In the bleachers, I was surrounded by a frothing crowd of football moms who kept screaming things like "Let's go, DEFENSE!!!" and "Way to go NATE!!!"  It was loud and distracting.  At times, I was compelled by the group mentality to jump to my feet and clap, even though I had no idea what I was jumping and clapping for.

I only stayed for the first two quarters.  At halftime, the band played a few more selections, and then I got a text from my daughter:  "Come get me."  So I picked up my book (yes, I brought a book to read) and Diet Mountain Dew, and I went in search of my car in the crowded parking lot.  Thank God for cars that beep when you push a button.

There was a moment, though, where I saw something a little miraculous tonight.  It was near the end of the second quarter.  The sun had been blazing all evening long, and then, in one moment, it was gone, as if God had reached up and flipped a switch.  The temperature dropped, and we were sitting in darkness.  It was kind of astounding.

So, at the beginning of the Labor Day weekend, in the bleachers at a football game, surrounded by a pack of rabid football fans, Saint Marty was handed another Alleluia moment.


Saturday, December 5, 2015

December 4: Softball Team, Pep Band, Peter Thabit Jones, "Elephant Seals," Off the Top of My Head

But he made it a point of telling his son, "Never take your good looks or coloring as something better."  Although many of his son's classmates at Corpus and later high school were black and Spanish-speaking kids, Ives went a step further and encouraged his son to join a Harlem baseball league.  For several years Robert had the distinction of being the only white boy, playing left field, on a softball team called the Harlem Ravens, which made it into third and fourth place in the city two years running.  He eventually had to quit because he was always getting jumped and coming home covered with bruises and with other injuries, about which he never complained but which broke his parents' hearts and tested Ives' convictions.

Among other things, Ives' story is one about the problem of race and poverty in the United States.  Ives is constantly making donations to community centers, and his wife makes a point of substitute teaching in inner-city schools, where she talks to the students about hope and the ability to rise above racial and social limitations.  The Ives family really tries to be color blind, despite the fact that their son is the target of racial violence.

But this post is not about the racial divide in the United States.  It's about sports.  I spent this evening in a high school gym, watching a basketball game.  Now that football season is over, my daughter--who plays in the school pep band--has moved indoors.  It was much more comfortable.  The bleachers were just as ass-numbing, but I did not have to contend with rain or snow or frost on my pumpkins.

My daughter's pep band sounded great.  Loud.  It felt like I was sitting inside a kettle drum.  Lots of thumping and trumpets.  By the time we left, my daughter's ears were ringing, and the kids were underneath the bleachers, combing through the garbage and doing God-knows-what else.

That's what I have for you guys tonight.  Race and basketball games and pep bands.  Tomorrow is my daughter's fifteenth birthday, so I expect lots of sulking and eye-rolling.  Maybe even some stomping and crying.

Saint Marty misses the days when his daughter was five years old.  She actually cried and stomped and sulked a lot less back then.

And now, another memory from Big Sur...

Elephant Seals
(for Carolyn and John)

by:  Peter Thabit Jones

They loll just like an unruly army,
Tired and stressed by their sea-playing day.

A colony of overweight, naked
Colonels; Mirounga augustirostris;

Living logs, oiled-up and stone-rock coloured
Blubber, they huddle like a dying herd

Of couch-size maggots.  They burp and shriek:
A strange pantomime at the ocean's edge.

Gregarious sunbathers now wind-blown;
One flicks up sand, as two others stretch high

And aggressively fawn, a ritual,
As they bite and show their salmon-pink throats.

Some check our presence with doleful eyes,
Others grossly crawl-flap to the water;

One elegantly moves through satin waves;
Several, farther out, head-bob around

Like bald men basking in holiday sun.
A weird sculpture sprawled out on the shore,

Performance art by drunken aliens,
They move and moan, an abandoned lament;

A shipwreck of creatures overlapping
Their woes, they litter the place like loafers.

Part-comic, part-tragic, they lie behind
Big Sur's fast road and the three-seeking cars.

Off the Top of My Head