Showing posts with label Endings and Beginnings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Endings and Beginnings. Show all posts

Thursday, December 28, 2017

December 28: Letting Go, Naomi Shihab Nye, "Burning the Old Year"

We come to a time of letting go.  In a few days, we will be writing "2018" on all our letters and e-mails and checks and poems.  It is time to think about endings and beginnings.

I am ready to let go of 2017, which has been full of wonderful things for me.  But, of course, it hasn't been all poetry and joy.  There have been challenges, as well.

Saint Marty is ready to start the fire . . .

Burning the Old Year

by:  Naomi Shihab Nye

Letters swallow themselves in seconds.   
Notes friends tied to the doorknob,   
transparent scarlet paper,
sizzle like moth wings,
marry the air.

So much of any year is flammable,   
lists of vegetables, partial poems.   
Orange swirling flame of days,   
so little is a stone.

Where there was something and suddenly isn’t,   
an absence shouts, celebrates, leaves a space.   
I begin again with the smallest numbers.

Quick dance, shuffle of losses and leaves,   
only the things I didn’t do   
crackle after the blazing dies.

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

December 13: A World of Peace and Freedom, Endings and Beginnings, Beer and Pizza

All this happened, more or less.  The war parts, anyway, are pretty much true.  One guy I knew really was shot in Dresden for taking a teapot that wasn't his.  Another guy I knew did threaten to have his personal enemies killed by hired gunmen after the war.  And so on.  I've changed all the names.

I really did go back to Dresden with Guggenheim money (God love it) in 1967.  It looked a lot like Dayton, Ohio, more open spaces than Dayton has.  There must be tons of human bone meal in the ground.

I went back there with an old war buddy, Bernard V. O'Hare, and we made friends with a cab driver, who took us to the slaughterhouse where we had been locked up at night as prisoners of war.  His name was Gerhard Muller.  He told us that he was a prisoner of the Americans for a while.  We asked him how it was to live under Communism, and he said that it was terrible at first, because everybody had to work so hard, and because there wasn't much shelter or food or clothing.  But things were much better now.  He had a pleasant little apartment, and his daughter was getting an excellent education.  His mother was incinerated in the Dresden fire-storm.  So it goes.

He sent O'Hare a postcard at Christmastime, and here is what it said:

"I wish you and your family also as to your friend Merry Christmas and a happy New Year and I hope that we'll meet again in a world of peace and freedom in the taxi cab if the accident will."

Where do you go when you've reached the end?  Back to the beginning, of course.  The passage above begins Vonnegut's Slaughterhouse.  It sets up a lot of what comes later in the book--Dresden, the teapot, the incineration of innocent people.  These are details that pretty much appear and reappear in all the pages that follow.

I am sorry for my absence yesterday.  I have been grading like crazy.  Yesterday, I read and commented on about 70 short student essays.  By the time I got home at around 8 p.m., I was brain dead.  I barely had enough energy to celebrate the defeat of Roy Moore in Alabama by Doug Jones.  Today, I graded another set of papers before I held my last class of the semester.

That's right.  I am at an end.  My students left the room tonight, and I will probably never see them again, unless they decide to take another class from me.  In a few days, I will submit my final grades, and it will all be done.  Then I will have to start over in a few weeks.  Endings and beginnings.

Tomorrow evening, I will be giving a holiday poetry reading at the library in my home town.  I have many close friends showing up.  Afterwards, I will be going out for drinks and pizza.  It is one of the last readings I will be giving this year.  Another ending.

That's what I have this evening.  Endings and beginnings.  Grading and poetry.  Beer and pepperoni.

Saint Marty is thankful for the prospect of a little quiet time.


Friday, June 5, 2015

June 5: Eternal Repose, Endings and Beginnings, Basket Fairy Tale, Joshua Mehigan, "The Crossroads"


And once a year, in the winter, usually a day or two after Christmas, he [Ives] and Annie would visit their son's grave.  Standing in the cemetery before his son's marker out in Long Island, as the years went by, Ives did not for a moment envision a seventeen-year-old in eternal repose, but a man the age his son would have been...

I am particularly moved by this passage.  Ives imagining his son growing older, living out the promise of his young life.  Ives sees Robert as a seminarian, then as a parish priest.  Ives' memory of his child is not stunted, cut short by his senseless murder.  It somehow continues.  When Ives reaches old age, he imagines Robert as a middle-aged pastor, placing the Eucharist in his open mouth.

At the beginning of every summer, some person erects a little shrine on the side of the highway by our local Pizza Hut.  Plastic flowers in the shape of a cross.  It's obviously in memory of a person who died in a traffic accident near that spot.  It saddens me every time I drive by it, which is almost on a daily basis.  I imagine it to be the work of someone like Ives, who's lost a child, maybe right before high school graduation.  The little flower cross is a reminder, for me, of the fragility of life.  How it can change in a matter of seconds.  Happiness and promise transformed into grief and longing.

As you may notice, I'm in a little bit of a funk this evening.  I don't know why.  I think it's just this time of the year.  Last days of school.  Graduations.  Dance recitals.  There's something very final about the end of May and the first days of June.  Change is in the air like the scent of lilac bushes.

Right now, I'm sitting outside my daughter and son's dance studio, waiting for a rehearsal to end.  The evening is cool, moving slowly toward dusk.  It has been a long week, what with my health issues and leaky roof on my mind.  This morning, I found out my wife's great uncle passed away.  A lovely, kind gentleman who served during World War II and was married to the same beautiful woman for 70 years.  His wife died just before Christmas of this past year, and now he has gone to join her.  They both loved dancing, and that's what I think they are doing right now.  Swinging around the floor as Benny Goodman leads the heavenly band.

My kids are done with school today.  Next year, my daughter will be a high school freshman.  I saw her eight-grade yearbook this evening.  She was voted "Inspirational Artist" along with a boy I don't know.  That makes me very happy.  She is artistically gifted and well-liked by her classmates.

Endings and beginnings.

Once upon a time, a basket weaver named Eugene lived in a tiny village named Yon.  All day long, he sat on his front steps, weaving beautiful and intricate baskets that people traveled hundreds of miles to purchase.  But the humble weaver never charged much for his wares.

One day, the roof of Eugene's cottage collapsed because of heavy rains.  Eugene  needed to raise the funds to pay the local roofer many hundreds of dollars to re-thatch his roof.  So, he raised the prices of his baskets, asking three times as much.

When word got out that Eugene was charging more for his weavings, the citizens of Yon and beyond stopped buying his baskets.  Eugene never got his roof fixed and one night caught pneumonia and died a horrible death, coughing and coughing.

After Eugene's death, his baskets suddenly became very valuable.  Collectors all over the kingdom started paying hundreds of thousands of gold pieces for a single basket.  Eugene's cottage was refurbished and turned into a museum.

Moral of the story:  roofs cost way too much friggin' money.

The Crossroads

by:  Joshua Mehigan

This is the place it happened.  It was here.
You might not know it was unless you knew.
All day the cars blow past and disappear.
This is the place it happened.  It was here.
Look at the sparkling dust, the oily smear.
Look at the highway marker, still askew.
This is the place it happened.  It was here.
You might not know it was unless you knew.

Yup, I'm a little down tonight