Showing posts with label Abby. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Abby. Show all posts

Friday, April 24, 2026

April 24, 2026: “The Meadow,” Poetry and Poetry and Poetry, “Some Thoughts from the Ghost of Mary Oliver”

Some things can change your life forever.  Certainly, falling in love qualifies.  Experiencing a death, as well.  Getting a new job.  Going back to school.  Moving to a new town or state or country.  Watching Star Wars: A New Hope for the first time.  (Hey, it changed my life.)

These experiences are powerfully instructive.  They teach you about yourself.  The first poem by Sharon Olds I ever read (“The Pope’s Penis”) made me want to be a poet.  Because of Olds’ bravery and boldness., I realized no subject was off limits.  I could write about anything.  Language was the key to the world.

Marie Howe writes about the power of language . . . 

The Meadow

by: Marie Howe

As we walk into words that have waited for us to enter them, so
the meadow, muddy with dreams, is gathering itself together

and trying, with difficulty, to remember how to make wildflowers.
Imperceptibly heaving with the old impatience, it knows

for certain that two horses walk upon it, weary of hay.
The horses, sway-backed and self important, cannot divine

how the small white pony mysteriously escapes the fence every day.
This is the miracle just beyond their heavy-headed grasp,

and they turn from his nuzzling with irritation. Everything
is crying out. Two crows, rising from the hill, fight

and caw-cry in mid-flight, then fall and light on the meadow grass
bewildered by their weight. A dozen wasps drone, tiny prop planes,

sputtering into a field the farmer has not yet plowed,
and what I thought was a phone, turned down and ringing,

is the knock of a woodpecker for food or warning, I can’t say.
I want to add my cry to those who would speak for the sound alone.

But in this world, where something is always listening, even
murmuring has meaning, as in the next room you moan

in your sleep, turning into late morning. My love, this might be
all we know of forgiveness, this small time when you can forget

what you are. There will come a day when the meadow will think
suddenly, water, root, blossom, through no fault of its own,

and the horses will lie down in daisies and clover. Bedeviled,
human, your plight, in waking, is to choose from the words

that even now sleep on your tongue, and to know that tangled
among them and terribly new is the sentence that could change your life.



I love that last phrase—“the sentence that could change your life.”  It’s a powerful thought.  We all carry in our mouths words that can cause earthquakes, heal broken hearts, end hunger, stop wars.  Think about it.  If a war can be started by one lunatic who can’t string together a coherent thought, then peace can be achieved by a sane person who’s not afraid to say, “Give peace a chance.”  (Thank you, John Lennon.)

Sorry that it has taken me so long to give an update after my last post about my wife’s health issues.  I’ve been eyeballs deep in poetry for over a week.  Last weekend, I visited a high school in Ann Arbor to talk poetry with the students.  Then I participated in a reading at a bookstore in Dexter, Michigan.  The next day, we drove to Detroit, had pizza with some family members I don’t get to see very often, including my grandniece Abby (one of my son’s favorite people).  Then I read poems at Next Chapter Books in Detroit.  (My first appearance in the Motor City—and my family came to support me.)

I didn’t have much of a chance to recover from this trip.  Monday, I dove right into the Great Lakes Poetry Festival at the library where I work.  Readings and writing workshops and movies and presentations.  Poetry and poetry and poetry.  I was surrounded by people who seize every day by the throat and refuse to let go.  Poets.

I’m pretty exhausted tonight, but it’s a good exhaustion.  Birthday exhaustion.  Christmas exhaustion.  You get the idea.  It’s as if I’ve been laughing for a week straight, and now my sides are hurting and eyes are watering.  I could happily sleep for a week, drunk on poetry.

As John Keating says in Dead Poets Society, “No matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world.”

Saint Marty wrote a new ghost poem this week . . . 

Some Thoughts from the Ghost of Mary Oliver

by: Martin Achatz

You think you know me because you’ve read
my poems about Blackwater Pond and geese,
bears digging honey from rotten tree trunks.
But I never wrote about stepping onto my front 
porch just as sun unzipped the horizon at dawn
and song sparrows shivered the pines with their
hungry music.  I never scribbled how good it was
to stand in that cold air before the woods 
stretched and yawned, how much I enjoyed 
my first wild and precious cigarette of the day.



Saturday, July 20, 2024

July 20: "The Lanyard," Camp, Beautiful Young People

Billy Collins goes to summer camp as a kid . . .

The Lanyard

by: Billy Collins

The other day I was ricocheting slowly
off the blue walls of this room,
moving as if underwater from typewriter to piano,
from bookshelf to an envelope lying on the floor,
when I found myself in the L section of the dictionary
where my eyes fell upon the word lanyard.

No cookie nibbled by a French novelist
could send one into the past more suddenly—
a past where I sat at a workbench at a camp
by a deep Adirondack lake
learning how to braid long thin plastic strips
into a lanyard, a gift for my mother.

I had never seen anyone use a lanyard
or wear one, if that’s what you did with them,
but that did not keep me from crossing
strand over strand again and again
until I had made a boxy
red and white lanyard for my mother.

She gave me life and milk from her breasts,
and I gave her a lanyard.
She nursed me in many a sick room,
lifted spoons of medicine to my lips,
laid cold face-cloths on my forehead,
and then led me out into the airy light

and taught me to walk and swim,
and I, in turn, presented her with a lanyard.
Here are thousands of meals, she said,
and here is clothing and a good education.
And here is your lanyard, I replied,
which I made with a little help from a counselor.

Here is a breathing body and a beating heart,
strong legs, bones and teeth,
and two clear eyes to read the world, she whispered,
and here, I said, is the lanyard I made at camp.
And here, I wish to say to her now,
is a smaller gift—not the worn truth

that you can never repay your mother,
but the rueful admission that when she took
the two-tone lanyard from my hand,
I was as sure as a boy could be
that this useless, worthless thing I wove
out of boredom would be enough to make us even.



This is a poem about a kid learning to make a lanyard at summer camp.  It's a poem about all the sacrifices a mother makes for her child.  It's about a grown child trying to honor the memory of his mother.  Most of all, this is a poem about love.

My wife, kids, niece, puppy, and I went to camp this afternoon.  It was a bon voyage celebration for another one of my nieces who is moving to Germany soon to start a new job.  So, we stuffed the back of our Subaru Impreza with bathing suits, a fruit tray, cookies, a hammock, fishing rods and tacklebox, and we headed out to Lake Arfelin (about a 40 minute drive from our house).

It was a wonderful gathering of in-laws, nephews, nieces, great nephews, great nieces--full of laughter and food and swimming and saunas.  We arrived around 1:30 in the afternoon and got back home around 9:30 at night.  It was a perfect day.  Relaxing.  Full of affection and love.  I am truly going to miss Aubri, my niece who is heading to Deutschland.  She's funny, genuine, and, truly, one of the best people I know.  

Just before we left, my nieces Abby and Brianna (another one of my favorite people), decided to go frog and tadpole hunting.  Armed with a fishing net and buckets, they managed to find several frogs in various stages of development, from tadpole onward.  One particular specimen looked like a fully-grown frog with a salamander tail.  To me, it resembled a mutant alien.  Abby loved it, holding it in her hands, taking pictures.

Tomorrow, Abby leaves for home.  In a few weeks, Aubri boards her airplane.  I hope they both know how much joy they bring me just by being a part of my life.  Like Collins giving his mother that insignificant lanyard, all I can offer nieces are these words.  They don't seem an adequate way to express my love for them, but they're all I have.

Saint Marty is so grateful for these two beautiful young people in his life.



Sunday, July 14, 2024

July 14: "In the Evening," Abby, Fellow Insomniac

Billy Collins at the end of day . . . 

In the Evening

by: Billy Collins

The heads of roses begin to droop.
The bee who has been hauling his gold
all day finds a hexagon in which to rest.

In the sky, traces of clouds,
the last few darting birds,
watercolors on the horizon.

The white cat sits facing a wall.
The horse in the field is asleep on its feet.

I light a candle on the wood table.
I take another sip of wine.
I pick up an onion and a knife.

And the past and the future?
Nothing but an only child with two different masks.



It is the end of day for me, too.  Collins is savoring the last remnants of the evening in this poem, and that is exactly what I'm trying to do.

Most of this Sunday, I've been traveling.  First, we came home from Calumet early this morning, dropped off my suitcase, picked up my son and puppy.  Then, we made a quick trip to Mackinaw City to pick up my great niece, Abby--one of my favorite people in the world

Abby is going to be spending the week with us, and my son couldn't be more excited.  These two truly get each other, and it's great to see them together.  Abby and I just finished watching the film Sasquatch Sunset, and she loved it.  (There are reasons why she's one of my favorite people in the world.)

Now, everyone is going/has gone to bed, and, despite the fact that I'm operating on about seven or eight hours of sleep over these past 72 hours, I'm not feeling particularly tired.  It could be because it's so warm--almost 90 degrees today, and it's still about 78 or so.  Or it could be my mind decompressing after a very busy weekend.  Or my mind anticipating a very busy week.

Whatever the reason, I am very much awake.

Maybe I'll read a little.  Or watch another movie.  Go for a walk.  Count some stars.  Eat some of the fudge I bought in Mackinaw City.  Write a poem.  Revise a poem.  Draw a picture.  Or I may just enjoy the quiet.  (Well, semi-quiet.  As I said, it's hot, and I have a fan blowing on me.)

Abby's kind of a night owl, so, she's probably still awake upstairs right now.  If she's anything like me, her brain probably has a hard time shutting down.  Too many things to think about.

Saint Marty is going to enjoy having a fellow insomniac in the house for a week.



Friday, December 29, 2023

December 29: "Praying," Pulpits and Pine Forests, Healing and Thanks

Mary Oliver's instructions about talking to God . . .

Praying

by:  Mary Oliver

It doesn't have to be
the blue iris, it could be
weeds in a vacant lot, or a few
small stones; just
pay attention, then patch

a few words together and don't try
to make them elaborate, this isn't
a contest but the doorway

into thanks, and a silence in which
another voice may speak.



Prayer takes many forms--from pulpits to pine forests.  Oliver's advice on how to pray is pretty simple and beautiful:  pay attention and say "thanks."  Because, really, that's what it's all about.  Recognizing blessings, in blue irises or vacant lots.  In the darkest of moments, and in the most joyous.

This morning, I woke to a text from my wife's older sister.  Her husband had a heart attack last night and needed emergency surgery.  He's doing well.  I whispered words of thanks for that this morning.  Both my sister-in-law and her husband have helped my family and me a great deal, through some of the most difficult times of my life.  So, tonight, I asking for any of my disciples to patch together a few words for these two wonderful souls.  Words of healing and thanks.

My son went on a little trip to Mackinaw City today with my sister.  They met up with my niece and her family, and my son got to hang with one of his favorite cousins--my great niece, Abby.  He got home a little while ago, and he was actually a little talkative and--above all else--so, so happy.  Most of the time, he's a stereotypical grunting, surly, fifteen-year-old boy.  Of course, that spirit of talkativeness lasted only a few minutes.  But, I'm still cobbling together a few more words of thanks for his happiness, because he's been struggling these last few months.  (I think he, unfortunately, inherited my penchant for dark moods.)

So, I have a lot to be thankful for tonight:  my sister-in-law, her husband, my son.  For their love and healing and joy.

Saint Marty has walked through the doorway of thanks, and now he's going to stop and listen in the silence for another voice to speak.