Showing posts with label Wallace Stevens. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Wallace Stevens. Show all posts

Sunday, August 17, 2025

August 17, 2025: “My Son the Man,” Nothing Bad, “Eating Pizza While Writing a Poem: A Prayer”

Nothing happened today.

That’s not a bad thing.  In fact, given the state of the world, I would choose nothing over Putin being in Alaska or President 47 invading Greenland or J. D. Vance trying to repeal the 19th Amendment.  Nothing is healthy.  Allows me to fall asleep easily.

Sharon Olds writes about putting her son to bed . . . 

My Son the Man

by: Sharon Olds

Suddenly his shoulders get a lot wider,
the way Houdini would expand his body
while people were putting him in chains. It seems
no time since I would help him to put on his sleeper,
guide his calves into the shadowy interior,
zip him up and toss him up and
catch his weight. I cannot imagine him
no longer a child, and I know I must get ready,
get over my fear of men now my son
is going to be one. This was not
what I had in mind when he pressed up through me like a
sealed trunk through the ice of the Hudson,
snapped the padlock, unsnaked the chains,
appeared in my arms. Now he looks at me
the way Houdini studied a box
to learn the way out, then smiled and let himself be manacled.



There are going to be no magic tricks with this post.  Nothing happened today.  Period.

I did lead a Zoom poetry workshop this evening, based on the poems of Charles Bukowski.  I’ve been doing a deep dive into his poetry this month, and, as always happens, my writing has taken on some of Bukowski’s signature literary moves.

Here is Saint Marty’s poem about nothing tonight, based on the following prompt from The Daily Poet:

Spend ten minutes meditating on the quote by Wallace Steven’s, “The Poet is the priest of the invisible.”. When you open your eyes, write down the words and images that came to you.  Now write a poem using those images.

Eating Pizza While Writing a Poem:  A Prayer

by: Martin Achatz

The poet is the priest of the invisible
wrote Wallace Stevens, which doesn’t
surprise me because I hardly ever
understand the bastard’s poems
anyway, and I’m kicking myself
in the balls for starting this poem
with his words, and I’m also
kicking myself in the balls for
eating pizza while scribbling
in my journal because my fingers
are all greasy and spotting up
the page, plus I just dripped
tomato sauce, and it now looks 
like the paper is wounded. 
I guess I’m trying to tell you
to order Mexican or Thai 
for dinner next time. 
A-fucking-men.



Saturday, October 20, 2018

October 20: Joseph Millar, "Night," Writing practice

Night

by:  Joseph Millar

Nobody wants to fall sleep
watching the stars burn like trash fires
listening to the big waves smoke
down the rocks,
nobody wants to sleep.

My Pelikan 800 fountain pen,
green with a faint gold stripe,
lost with my hundred-proof memory,
my sea flat as glass,
its kelp leaves and poppies.

Now I watch the women
dressed in black--black shoes,
black pants, long hair falling
over their hands and wrists.
They star awake far into the night
writing their scattered poems,
sisters of the half-empty wine jar,
of childhood lost
in the coastal fog and the lapsed
Catholic funeral flowers.

Nobody thinks of going to sleep
now that the streetcars are silent,
now that the dew seeps
into the grass.
I came west in my twenties
looking for work,
driving straight into the setting sun
and now I'll take anything:
a pencil stub and a cheap
cardboard notebook
somebody gave me for nothing.

_________________________

I love the images in this poem of all these people, refusing sleep, writing in the night.  It's something I'm familiar with.  As I've said before, my writing time is squeezed between moments of registering patients and teaching classes.  A stolen ten minutes in the morning office, before everyone else shows up and fills the place with noise and distraction.  An hour between classes, when I close my office door and pretend that I'm Keats coughing my lungs out.

This is my writing practice.  Probably the writing practice of millions of poets.  William Carlos Williams scribbling verse on his prescription pads in between house calls.  Wallace Stevens printing lines on the back of a customer's insurance policy.  That's the working life of most poets.  Poetry doesn't pay the bills.  Its rewards are not tangible in any way.

Yet, poems save my life.  They help me make sense of a world that makes no sense to me at times.  They fill me with compassion and understanding.  They puncture balloons and anger and resentment I sometimes carry around.  They make me appreciate being a part of the universe.

I know all of this sounds very highfalutin.  But it's true for me.  Tuesday, I worked all day on a poem.  Line by line.  I couldn't stop.  The idea came to me as I was taking a shower in the morning.  On my drive in to the medical office, I wrote the first stanza in my head.  In between patients, I swam in words, plucking them from the kelp and seaweed.  By the time I'd scanned the last medical chart, entered the last charge, I had a new poem.

Poems are around me all the time.  I just have to look around and write them down.


Tuesday, February 13, 2018

February 13: Herds of Walruses and Whales, Yooper, Mind of Winter

Nothing more happened on the passage worthy the mentioning; so, after a fine run, we safely arrived in Nantucket.
Nantucket! Take out your map and look at it. See what a real corner of the world it occupies; how it stands there, away off shore, more lonely than the Eddystone lighthouse. Look at it- a mere hillock, and elbow of sand; all beach, without a background. There is more sand there than you would use in twenty years as a substitute for blotting paper. Some gamesome wights will tell you that they have to plant weeds there, they don't grow naturally; that they import Canada thistles; that they have to send beyond seas for a spile to stop a leak in an oil cask; that pieces of wood in Nantucket are carried about like bits of the true cross in Rome; that people there plant toadstools before their houses, to get under the shade in summer time; that one blade of grass makes an oasis, three blades in a day's walk a prairie; that they wear quicksand shoes, something like Laplander snow-shoes; that they are so shut up, belted about, every way inclosed, surrounded, and made an utter island of by the ocean, that to the very chairs and tables small clams will sometimes be found adhering as to the backs of sea turtles. But these extravaganzas only show that Nantucket is no Illinois.
Look now at the wondrous traditional story of how this island was settled by the red-men. Thus goes the legend. In olden times an eagle swooped down upon the New England coast and carried off an infant Indian in his talons. With loud lament the parents saw their child borne out of sight over the wide waters. They resolved to follow in the same direction. Setting out in their canoes, after a perilous passage they discovered the island, and there they found an empty ivory casket,- the poor little Indian's skeleton.
What wonder, then, that these Nantucketers, born on a beach, should take to the sea for a livelihood! They first caught crabs and quahogs in the sand; grown bolder, they waded out with nets for mackerel; more experienced, they pushed off in boats and captured cod; and at last, launching a navy of great ships on the sea, explored this watery world; put an incessant belt of circumnavigations round it; peeped in at Behring's Straits; and in all seasons and all oceans declared everlasting war with the mightiest animated mass that has survived the flood; most monstrous and most mountainous! That Himmalehan, salt-sea, Mastodon, clothed with such portentousness of unconscious power, that his very panics are more to be dreaded than his most fearless and malicious assaults!
And thus have these naked Nantucketers, these sea hermits, issuing from their ant-hill in the sea, overrun and conquered the watery world like so many Alexanders; parcelling out among them the Atlantic, Pacific, and Indian oceans, as the three pirate powers did Poland. Let America add Mexico to Texas, and pile Cuba upon Canada; let the English overswarm all India, and hang out their blazing banner from the sun; two thirds of this terraqueous globe are the Nantucketer's. For the sea is his; he owns it, as Emperors own empires; other seamen having but a right of way through it. Merchant ships are but extension bridges; armed ones but floating forts; even pirates and privateers, though following the sea as highwaymen the road. they but plunder other ships, other fragments of the land like themselves, without seeking to draw their living from the bottomless deep itself. The Nantucketer, he alone resides and riots on the sea; he alone, in Bible language, goes down to it in ships; to and fro ploughing it as his own special plantation. There is his home; there lies his business which a Noah's flood would not interrupt, though it overwhelmed all the millions in China. He lives on the sea, as prairie cocks in the prairie; he hides among the waves, he climbs them as chamois hunters climb the Alps. For years he knows not the land; so that when he comes to it at last, it smells like another world, more strangely than the moon would to an Earthsman. With the landless gull, that at sunset folds her wings and is rocked to sleep between billows; so at nightfall, the Nantucketer, out of sight of land, furls his sails, and lays him to his rest, while under his very pillow rush herds of walruses and whales.

Really, this entire chapter from Moby-Dick is a love letter to Nantucket, full of legend and poetry.  Look at that last image:  ". . . the Nantucketer, out of sight of land, furls his sails, and lays him to his rest, while under his very pillow rush herds of walruses and whales."  I probably didn't need to repeat those lines, but I love them so much that I couldn't resist.  It really paints a picture of the place and people who live there.

In a lot of ways, the description of Nantucketers sort of reminds me of the residents of the Upper Peninsula of Michigan.  We are rugged folk who don't really slow down for bad weather.  Sure, schools get shut down because of snow and ice.  Yes, the Mackinac Bridge is closed in due to high winds (mostly to protect non-Yoopers from being blown over the railing into the Straits of Mackinac).  I can remember one sub-zero Saturday afternoon when I saw an older woman fall on the sidewalk outside of church.  I rushed over to see if she was injured.  "No," the woman said, "but if you could just help me up."  I lifted her to her feet.  She limped into church and stayed for the whole Mass.  Two months later, I found out that she had fractured four vertebrae when she fell.  That is a true Yooper story.

Most of my relatives live downstate or in Wisconsin.  They are all very leery about travelling through the U. P. in February to attend my father's funeral.  In fact, several people who were very close to my father have begged off, citing weather and ice and cold as the reasons.  I'm not judging them.  I understand their reluctance to travel several hundred Upper Peninsula miles.  If you are not used to the weather in this rocky, shark-shaped piece of land, you probably should stay home.

My dad loved this place.  When he was living in Detroit, he always drove to the U. P. for deer hunting  season.  He told me stories of waiting at the Straits to take a ferry from Mackinaw City to Saint Ignace  before the Bridge was built.  (If you're a Yooper, you don't have to say "Mackinac Bridge.")  The cars and trucks would be lined up for hours, he said, and people would walk up and down, selling sandwiches and coffee to the waiting hunters.   In the summer, my dad and mom would pack all us kids into the family van and drive from Detroit to the far end of the U. P.   We would stay in a camp in Gay, Michigan, not too far from Lake Superior, for two weeks, taking saunas and fishing and making bonfires.

Even though my father was born in Detroit, in his heart, he was always a Yooper.  He moved us to the U. P. when I was seven or eight.  I have very little memory of living in Detroit.  My childhood was in Ishpeming.  The Upper Peninsula is my home.  It's where I'm rooted.  When I write poems or essays or stories or blog posts, I can hear the waves of Lake Superior lapping in my ears.  I carve my images from snow and ice.

Once he moved to the Upper Peninsula, my dad didn't leave it very often.  Maybe for a funeral or wedding, but that's about it.  I think he enjoyed the isolation of this land.  Enjoyed being surrounded by water.  It was the closest he could come to living on a deserted island.  I think that's why I like the U. P., as well.  I like the idea that, if somebody wants to visit me, they're really going to have to work at it.

Over these last few days, I've been trying to find my father in myself.  We were very different people, with different beliefs and values.  Yet, we were exactly the same in our love for this place.  He made sacrifices to move his family here.  I made sacrifices to keep my family here.  Yet, I wouldn't change a thing about my life.  To paraphrase Wallace Stevens a little, one must have a mind of winter to live in the Upper Peninsula.

My dad had a mind of winter.  So do I.

Saint Marty is thankful this afternoon for his Yooper father.


Monday, January 26, 2015

January 26: Working Hard, , Daydream, "Ives" Dip

I have been working pretty hard all day long.  Eight hours in the medical office.  Then, I took my son to religion class.  I spent a couple hours at church, listening to a video about confession and penance.  At least, that's what I think it was about.  I was sort of reading and preparing for teaching while the video was playing.  (I know, I know.  I'm going to hell.)  After I got home and got my son in bed, I took out my laptop and did additional schoolwork for a couple of hours.  It is now 10:10 p.m., and my eyes are burning.

I got a lot done today.  I have a whole lot more to do tomorrow, but I'm in pretty good shape at the moment.  I have to admit that I did daydream a little bit tonight about having a full-time teaching job.  One where I could go to the university, sit in my office for a few hours, and get all my crap done during the day so that I could actually relax a little bit.  At the moment, relaxation for me is when I fall asleep around midnight.

It's a daydream in which I indulge frequently.  To have a somewhat normal life with normal hours.  I have never had that.  Ever.  Since I entered the work force, I have always held down, at the minimum, two jobs.  At times, that number has climbed to four.  Currently, I have a full-time job (the medical office) and a part-time job (the university).  And I'm exhausted.

I'm not complaining.  I have learned a long time ago that complaining doesn't do any good.  It just makes me more miserable, and it doesn't really make for compelling reading on this blog.  I'm not the first poet to hold down a day job.  Wallace Stevens sold insurance.  William Carlos Williams was a doctor.  (That's why most of Williams' poems are so short.  He wrote them on the back of prescription pads.)

My question tonight for my Ives Dip is pretty straightfoward:

Am I ever going to get a full-time teaching job at the university?

And the answer from Oscar Hiljuelos is:

Slowly [Ives] began to earn more money, to dress better, and finally to settle into a series of relaxing affectations that defined the creative people in his field.

More money.  Better clothes.  Relaxing affectations.  Looks like Saint Marty's going to finally get his dream job.  Or he's going to write pornography for a living.

Sometimes, I don't even find myself interesting

Thursday, April 11, 2013

April 11: Snow and Poetry

Tonight is a night for snow and poetry.

The Upper Peninsula of Michigan is bracing for a huge snowstorm overnight.  Up to 14 inches where I live in the highlands of Marquette County.  It's supposed to start falling later this evening and last until Saturday morning.  It's the same storm that has pretty much paralyzed Minnesota.  In the U.P., it will simply add five to ten minutes onto the morning commute.  However, I am tired of snow.

The other thing going on tonight is a poetry reading by a good friend of mine at the local library.  He's reading from his newly published book of poems, and I'm planning to attend.  I've even offered my students extra credit for showing up and writing a paper about it.  I'm just hoping that, by the time the reading is over, I'm not going to be driving home in a blizzard.  I've done that quite a few times.  It isn't fun.

That is what's on Saint Marty's agenda.  To quote Wallace Stevens, Saint Marty has "a mind of winter" tonight.

This is what my drive home is going to be like this evening

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

July 27: Ice Cream, New Poem, Wallace Stevens

For what should have been a very slow day, I have been very busy.  Answering phone calls.  Stomping out small fires.  Working on a new poem.  The time has flown by.  It feels as though I haven't gotten much accomplished, however.  I have a few more hours to go.  Maybe I can finish a few more tasks.

The poem I just finished is inspired by my friend, Matt--one of the people my wife and I shared a Thai pizza with last night.  Since he's moved to Marquette, he's been trying to make whitefish-thimbleberry ice cream.  At least that's what he tells me, and I have no reason to doubt him.  It sounds a little disgusting to me.  Anyway, that detail reminded me of the Wallace Stevens poem, "The Emperor of Ice Cream."  Stevens' poem is about death.  My poem is about the exact opposite, I think.  It's about new life.  Starting over.  Food.  And ice cream.  Writing this poem made me a little hungry.

Whitefish and thimbleberry, anyone?
I've got a busy evening ahead.  I have to practice with the praise band at church.  I'm hoping to go for a run when I get home.  I have to finish the book for my Book Club get-together tomorrow night.  Too much to do, and not enough time to do it.  Time to get back to work.

Saint Marty has to read some Wally Lamb.

The New Emperor of Ice Cream

for M. G. F.

He makes whitefish-thimbleberry
Ice, a new flavor to accompany
The table of his life, set with moose,
Poetry, venison sausage, and snow.
The topography of hunger necessitates
This change of recipe from sherbets
Of his past, from caribou pancake,
From mosquito blood orange, from
All those tastes that quenched his tongue
In Juno and Phoenix, Barolo and Big Sur.
Now under Lake Superior sun, he mixes
Rock salt, fish, milk, rubus parviflorus.
Crushes.  Freezes.  Stirs.  Freezes again.
Until this roller of cigars, this whipper
Of concupiscent curds, finds his days,
His nights embroidered with cream,
With wail and want, with infant scream.