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Thursday, November 28, 2019

November 28: Day of Thankfulness, Good Friend, "Bigfoot Gives Thanks"

I didn't want this day of thankfulness to pass without sharing some thoughts before I head off to bed.

Sometimes, life doesn't turn out the way you expect.  A snow storm hits, and suddenly you're stranded in an airport instead of eating turkey and mashed potatoes with your family.  You wake up in the morning, and your car won't start.  A second-rate reality television star becomes President of the United States.  

Life simply has a way of throwing curve balls at you all the time.

I have a good friend who's hurting this evening.  A person full of love and smiles, all the time.  My friend's life has been affected significantly by addiction.  The person she loves the most has become a stranger to her.  I understand the pain and grief  that she's going through.  It's like dragging fathoms and fathoms of chains around with you, to borrow an image from A Christmas Carol.  No matter where you are, what your'e doing, who you're with--you just can't escape it.

Today is Thanksgiving.  This morning, my friend texted me and said, "I'm just not feeling it."

I want to remind my friend that she is surrounded by angels.  She can be thankful for that.  I want to remind her that, even in the eye of the hurricane, she can find peace.  She can be thankful for that.  And I want to remind her, especially, that life isn't defined by curve balls.  It's defined by how much she is loved.  She can be thankful for that.

Be well, my friend.  I said a prayer for you this evening.  It was a prayer of thanks.  That you exist, and that you bring light into the world.

You are one of the blessings in Saint Marty's life this Thanksgiving.


Bigfoot Gives Thanks

by:  Martin Achatz

after Gerard Manley Hopkins

He doesn’t chase down a turkey, wring
its pink neck like a wet dish rag,
gut it with his thumb, cook it
in sun and fly and maggot for days,
serve it with sides of chewed yam,
moose marrow, fermented pumpkin
guts, green with time, smelling
strong as a bear den at winter’s end.
He doesn’t smooth his hair with mud,
brush his teeth with fresh milkweed,
cram himself into a church pew
beside blue-haired widows who look
at his gorilla arms and long
to feel their dead husbands’ dark
embraces in bed at night again.
Doesn’t stand when the organ
starts breathing music, raise the siren
of his voice to “Now Thank We
All Our God” until the stained glass
rattles and fractures, letting seams
of pure white stitch all gathered
with the shook foil of the world.
No.  His way is simpler, a morning
glory leaning toward day, unfolding,
shaking off the teary dew of darkness.
Stand outside at dawn or dusk.  The bent
world is charged with his hairy
gratitude, in the long-legged shadows
of first and last light as they stretch
and stretch and stretch down the street,
across railroad trestle, through hayfields,
cornfields, into pines and poplar--
further and further and further--mountain,
swamp and lake, canyon and cave,
ocean, glacier, savanna, desert,
until, at last, they have touched it
all.  All the grandeur of deep down things.


Sunday, July 28, 2019

July 28: Tough Assignment, Curve Balls, Playing God

After learning the answer to the Big Question of life, the universe, and everything . . .

It was a long long time before anyone spoke.

Out of the corner of his eye Phouchg could see the sea of tense expectant faces down in the square outside.

"We're going to get lynched, aren't we?" he whispered.

"It was a tough assignment," said Deep Thought mildly.

Sometimes life doesn't always turn out the way you want or expect.  After seven and a half million years, Phouchg has been given the answer to the Big Question by the stupendous super computer Deep Thought.  That answer is 42.  Hardly mind-blowing or mind-expanding.

Like I said, life has a way of throwing you curve balls.  Sort of like prayer.  People pray to God for a lot of things.  Cure my mother of cancer.  Let me win the lottery.  Help me to pay my bills.  Make my wife's mental illness go away.  The list goes on and on, a different need for every person on the planet. 

In our society of instant gratification, we expect God to answer those prayers immediately, and exactly the way we want them answered.  In essence, most people, in their prayer lives, play God.  They think they know what's best, and they tell God exactly what He should do.

That's a control thing.  I'm guilty of it frequently.  I write a script for my life, and I expect everybody to follow that script.  When someone doesn't follow that script, I get angry, frustrated, afraid.  Of course, nobody knows the lines and stage directions in the script I've written. 

When I tell my son that it's time for bed, his lines should be:  "Yes, father.  Thank you for reminding me."  And his stage direction should be:  Gets up from chair, goes to bathroom, brushes his teeth, then immediately crosses to bed and falls asleep.

The answer I received tonight:  "Just a second!"  The actual stage directions tonight:  Gets up from his chair after another ten minutes, goes directly to bed without brushing his teeth, and then screams at the top of his lungs "Get your butt in here!!!"

People rarely follow my script.  That's because they don't know anything about my script.  I'm playing God, just like when I tell God how to answer my prayers.  God simply doesn't work that way.  He's in control, and I have to understand and accept that.   Prayers always get answered, but not always in the time-frame or way I expect/demand.

It's exhausting playing God, because I set myself up for constant frustration.  I can barely handle it some days.  No wonder God is continually disappointed in the human race in the Bible.  We break His heart on a daily basis.

Saint Marty needs to stop casting himself as God because God always reminds Saint Marty that he's not in charge.