Wednesday, September 12, 2018

September 12: Billy Collins, "The Names," Remembering Heroes

The Names

by:  Billy Collins

Yesterday, I lay awake in the palm of the night.

A soft rain stole in, unhelped by any breeze,

And when I saw the silver glaze on the windows,

I started with A, with Ackerman, as it happened,

Then Baxter and Calabro,

Davis and Eberling, names falling into place

As droplets fell through the dark.

Names printed on the ceiling of the night.

Names slipping around a watery bend.

Twenty-six willows on the banks of a stream.

In the morning, I walked out barefoot

Among thousands of flowers

Heavy with dew like the eyes of tears,

And each had a name --

Fiori inscribed on a yellow petal

Then Gonzalez and Han, Ishikawa and Jenkins.

Names written in the air

And stitched into the cloth of the day.

A name under a photograph taped to a mailbox.

Monogram on a torn shirt,

I see you spelled out on storefront windows

And on the bright unfurled awnings of this city.

I say the syllables as I turn a corner --

Kelly and Lee,

Medina, Nardella, and O'Connor.

When I peer into the woods,

I see a thick tangle where letters are hidden

As in a puzzle concocted for children.

Parker and Quigley in the twigs of an ash,

Rizzo, Schubert, Torres, and Upton,

Secrets in the boughs of an ancient maple.

Names written in the pale sky.

Names rising in the updraft amid buildings.

Names silent in stone

Or cried out behind a door.

Names blown over the earth and out to sea.

In the evening -- weakening light, the last swallows.

A boy on a lake lifts his oars.

A woman by a window puts a match to a candle,

And the names are outlined on the rose clouds --

Vanacore and Wallace,

(let X stand, if it can, for the ones unfound)

Then Young and Ziminsky, the final jolt of Z.

Names etched on the head of a pin.

One name spanning a bridge, another undergoing a tunnel.

A blue name needled into the skin.

Names of citizens, workers, mothers and fathers,

The bright-eyed daughter, the quick son.

Alphabet of names in a green field.

Names in the small tracks of birds.

Names lifted from a hat

Or balanced on the tip of the tongue.

Names wheeled into the dim warehouse of memory.

So many names, there is barely room on the walls of the heart.

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Sorry I didn't post yesterday.  Time and energy got away from me on September 11.

So, in honor of yesterday's anniversary, I give you Billy Collins' poem, which never ceases to move me deeply.  Brings back all the feelings of the moments when those planes hit the Towers.

Saint Marty is thankful for the heroes of that day, in all their colors, shapes, genders, sexualities, religions.


Monday, September 10, 2018

September 10: Brain Dead Post, Tracy K. Smith, "Dusk"

This will be a brain dead post.  I have engagements and teaching and work from 6 a.m. until 8 or 9 p.m. from now until Friday night.  Not sure how many appearances Moby-Dick will be making in the next few days. 

So, instead, Saint Marty offers you a poem:

Dusk

by:  Tracy K. Smith

What woke to war in me those years
When my daughter had first grown into
A solid self-centered self? I’d watch her
Sit at the table—well, not quite sit,
More like stand on one leg while
The other knee hovered just over the chair.
She wouldn't lower herself, as if
There might be a fire, or a great black
Blizzard of waves let loose in the kitchen,
And she'd need to make her escape. No,
She'd trust no one but herself, her own
New lean always jittering legs to carry her—
Where exactly? Where would a child go?
To there. There alone. She'd rest one elbow
On the table—the opposite one to the bent leg
Skimming the solid expensive tasteful chair.
And even though we were together, her eyes
Would go half-dome, shades dropped
Like a screen at some cinema the old aren't
Let into. I thought I'd have more time! I thought
My body would have taken longer going
About the inevitable feat of repelling her,
But now, I could see even in what food
She left untouched, food I'd bought and made
And all but ferried to her lips, I could see
How it smacked of all that had grown slack
And loose in me. Her other arm
Would wave the fork around just above
The surface of the plate, casting about
For the least possible morsel, the tiniest
Grain of unseasoned rice. She'd dip
Into the food like one of those shoddy
Metal claws poised over a valley of rubber
Bouncing balls, the kind that lifts nothing
Or next to nothing and drops it in the chute.
The narrow untouched hips. The shoulders
Still so naïve as to stand squared, erect,
Impervious facing the window open
Onto the darkening dusk.


Saturday, September 8, 2018

September 8: The Blacksmith, White Privileged Male, Servants in Washington

Availing himself of the mild, summer-cool weather that now reigned in these latitudes, and in preparation for the peculiarly active pursuits shortly to be anticipated, Perth, the begrimed, blistered old blacksmith, had not removed his portable forge to the hold again, after concluding his contributory work for Ahab's leg, but still retained it on deck, fast lashed to ringbolts by the foremast; being now almost incessantly invoked by the headsmen, and harpooneers, and bowsmen to do some little job for them; altering, or repairing, or new shaping their various weapons and boat furniture. Often he would be surrounded by an eager circle, all waiting to be served; holding boat-spades, pikeheads, harpoons, and lances, and jealously watching his every sooty movement, as he toiled. Nevertheless, this old man's was a patient hammer wielded by a patient arm. No murmur, no impatience, no petulance did come from him. Silent, slow, and solemn; bowing over still further his chronically broken back, he toiled away, as if toil were life itself, and the heavy beating of his hammer the heavy beating of his heart. And so it was.- Most miserable!

A peculiar walk in this old man, a certain slight but painful appearing yawing in his gait, had at an early period of the voyage excited the curiosity of the mariners. And to the importunity of their persisted questionings he had finally given in; and so it came to pass that every one now knew the shameful story of his wretched fate.

Belated, and not innocently, one bitter winter's midnight, on the road running between two country towns, the blacksmith half-stupidly felt the deadly numbness stealing over him, and sought refuge in a leaning, dilapidated barn. The issue was, the loss of the extremities of both feet. Out of this revelation, part by part, at last came out the four acts of the gladness, and the one long, and as yet uncatastrophied fifth act of the grief of his life's drama.

He was an old man, who, at the age of nearly sixty, had postponedly encountered that thing in sorrow's technicals called ruin. He had been an artisan of famed excellence, and with plenty to do; owned a house and garden; embraced a youthful, daughter-like, loving wife, and three blithe, ruddy children; every Sunday went to a cheerful-looking church, planted in a grove. But one night, under cover of darkness, and further concealed in a most cunning disguisement, a desperate burglar slid into his happy home, and robbed them all of everything. And darker yet to tell, the blacksmith himself did ignorantly conduct this burglar into his family's heart. It was the Bottle Conjuror! Upon the opening of that fatal cork, forth flew the fiend, and shrivelled up his home. Now, for prudent, most wise, and economic reasons, the blacksmith's shop was in the basement of his dwelling, but with a separate entrance to it; so that always had the young and loving healthy wife listened with no unhappy nervousness, but with vigorous pleasure, to the stout ringing of her young-armed old husband's hammer; whose reverberations, muffled by passing through the floors and walls, came up to her, not unsweetly, in her nursery; and so, to stout Labor's iron lullaby, the blacksmith's infants were rocked to slumber.

Oh, woe on woe! Oh, Death, why canst thou not sometimes be timely? Hadst thou taken this old blacksmith to thyself ere his full ruin came upon him, then had the young widow had a delicious grief, and her orphans a truly venerable, legendary sire to dream of in their after years; and all of them a care-killing competency. But Death plucked down some virtuous elder brother, on whose whistling daily toil solely hung the responsibilities of some other family, and left the worse than useless old man standing, till the hideous rot of life should make him easier to harvest.

Why tell the whole? The blows of the basement hammer every day grew more and more between; and each blow every day grew fainter than the last; the wife sat frozen at the window, with tearless eyes, glitteringly gazing into the weeping faces of her children; the bellows fell; the forge choked up with cinders; the house was sold; the mother dived down into the long church-yard grass; her children twice followed her thither; and the houseless, familyless old man staggered off a vagabond in crape; his every woe unreverenced; his grey head a scorn to flaxen curls!

Death seems the only desirable sequel for a career like this; but Death is only a launching into the region of the strange Untried; it is but the first salutation to the possibilities of the immense Remote, the Wild, the Watery, the Unshored; therefore, to the death-longing eyes of such men, who still have left in them some interior compunctions against suicide, does the all-contributed and all-receptive ocean alluringly spread forth his whole plain of unimaginable, taking terrors, and wonderful, new-life adventures; and from the hearts of infinite Pacifics, the thousand mermaids sing to them- "Come hither, broken-hearted; here is another life without the guilt of intermediate death; here are wonders supernatural, without dying for them. Come hither! bury thyself in a life which, to your now equally abhorred and abhorring, landed world, is more oblivious than death. dome hither! put up thy grave-stone, too, within the churchyard, and come hither, till we marry thee!"

Hearkening to these voices, East and West, by early sunrise, and by fall of eve, the blacksmith's soul responded, Aye, I come! And so Perth went a-whaling.

An uplifting little tale for a Saturday morning.  A blacksmith artist  loses his young wife and family, home, livelihood, drapes himself in black, and becomes a vagabond.  He's one of those guys you see on the street corner, veiled in a cloud of sadness.  You might not know his story, but he carries loss around with him, wears it like an old tee shirt from a Grateful Dead concert, dirty, tattered, and full of funk.

I think we all know people like Perth.  Walk by them every day without paying any notice.  They're easy to ignore.  You don't want to look at them too closely because it's painful, makes you feel guilty for the relatively comfortable life that you lead.  Or maybe it's fear, like their bad fortune is a virus you might contract.  So, it's easier simply to walk by them, averting your eyes, looking at beautiful cloud formations or an interesting window display.

I think, in my country (and probably the world, as a whole), we've become so self-centered that we've forgotten the very things that make us human--our abilities to feel compassion and empathy, to reach out and help people or creatures in need.  Instead, we worry that we don't have the latest iteration of the iPhone, haven't binge-watched the latest season of Stranger Things.

That's the problem in the United States right now.  The person sitting in the Oval Office has been spoiled his whole life.  He hasn't had to struggle for anything.  He was born rich, lived rich, and will die rich.  And he wants to make sure that he doesn't have to share his toys with anybody else in the sandbox.  Not only that, but he's surrounded by like-minded spoiled people.  White.  Privileged.  Male.  Rich.  Frightened of people who don't look like them, aren't like them.

The United States is one of the wealthiest and freest countries in the world.  Yet, homelessness and hunger is rampant.  Young people graduate from colleges with thousands and thousands of student debt.  Sick people have to make the choice not to seek treatment because it simply costs too much money.  And millions of people work two or three low-paying jobs in order to provide for their families.

It's really time that we stop being afraid of the rich white guys who run this country.  It's time that the rich white guys start being afraid of us.  We need to remind the people in power that they aren't the bosses.  They're the employees.  And they need to start taking care of EVERYONE--young, old, man, woman, teenager, child, black, white, brown, straight, gay, bisexual, transgender, legal citizen, legal and illegal immigrant.  There is enough food and money and resources in this country for every person.  It's just that 1% of our population controls 98 or 99% of this abundance.

It's time to get angry for all the Perths out there.  Time for all the Perths to stand up and retake control.  Remind the servants in Washington, D. C., that they are SERVANTS.

Okay, I'm climbing down from my soap box now, but I'm not closing my mouth.  Not putting away my anger.  If you tell me that American needs to be great again, I will tell you that the only way that's going to happen is when we start taking care of people again.  Not just millionaires and billionaires.  We need to remember what's written on that plaque by the Statue of Liberty:

Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame,
With conquering limbs astride from land to land;
Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand
A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame
Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name
Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand
Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command
The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.
“Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!” cries she
With silent lips. “Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!”

When we start living by these words, America will be great again.

Saint Marty is thankful this morning for freedom of speech.


September 8: Stanley Kunitz, "End of Summer," Summer Person

End of Summer

by:  Stanley Kunitz

An agitation of the air,
A perturbation of the light
Admonished me the unloved year
Would turn on its hinge that night.
 
I stood in the disenchanted field
Amid the stubble and the stones,
Amazed, while a small worm lisped to me
The song of my marrow-bones.
 
Blue poured into summer blue,
A hawk broke from his cloudless tower,
The roof of the silo blazed, and I knew
That part of my life was over.
 
Already the iron door of the north
Clangs open: birds, leaves, snows
Order their populations forth,
And a cruel wind blows.

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Yes, it feels like the end of summer this morning.  The high temperature of the day is only going to be 61 degrees.  I'm going to cut my grass one more time this afternoon.  Unless we get a spell of 80- and 90-degree days with a lot of rain, this will probably be the last mow of the summer season for me.  (Thank God!)

I used to be a winter person.  Then I switched to autumn for several years.  Now, I am totally a summer person.  I love the heat and light and length of the days.  Love being able to go for a 45-minute walk at 10 o'clock at night and return with light still in the sky.

I guess what I'm saying is that I accept that the leaves are changing colors and there will be frost on the morning windows soon.  I don't have to like it.

Saint Marty wants a vacation to Hawaii.  For the next nine months.