Sunday, January 25, 2026

January 25, 2026: “The Saw, The Drill,” Another Shooting, “Laundry Day”

WARNING;  I am going to be writing about yesterday’s shooting in Minneapolis.  

Another day, another shooting.

Some things are impossible to ignore, and I’m not sure that ignorance is bliss in this situation.  To ignore is to be complicit, and I simply can’t pretend that everything is sunshine and chocolates in the United States at the moment.

A little over two weeks ago, Renee Good was murdered on the streets of Minneapolis by a masked ICE agent whose only response after shooting here in the face was to call her a “fucking bitch.” Yesterday (Saturday, January 24, 2026) a group of ICE agents murdered another innocent protestor in Minneapolis.  His name was Alex Pretti, a 37-year-old intensive care nurse who worked for a Veterans Administration hospital in the city.  Trying to protect a woman, Pretti was pepper-sprayed, forced to the sidewalk, brutally beaten, and then shot multiple times.  (I’ve watched the video of the killing.  The ICE agents fire at least ten shots into Pretti’s prostrate body in the space of about five or seven seconds.)  After they shot him, one ICE agent can be seen clapping while the others turn Pretti’s body to count bullet holes.

I know I said I was going to try to remain positive in my posts, but I just can’t tonight.  I . . . just . . . can’t.

Marie Howe writes about how humans break things . . . 

The Saw, The Drill

by: Marie Howe

There’s always a chain saw somewhere,

the high whine of a drill, somebody building something or

tearing it down—fastening metal to metal.


When did wood give way to iron?

Then to plastic?


Almost everywhere the sound of the human will:

the bluster of engine, the grind of a blade, the wheel:

hammering, construction, repair.


Someone nailed to a cross, someone leashed, lashed.

Someone hung from a scaffold:  listen:  the squeak of the rope

the hammering.


Kill him with his own gun, a woman shouted,

Kill him with his own gun.


What have we made?  What are we making?

And who or what made us that we should make


such things as we do and did?  We grow smaller.  We break things.

Then turn to each other and beg for what no human can give.



This is a difficult poem for me to read tonight.  It’s all about humankind’s inherent need to break things.  We create, we destroy.  The line that sticks with me:  Kill him with his own gun.  I’m tired of ruthless mercenaries patrolling our streets, tear-gassing and detaining legal protestors, and un-aliving mothers and poets and nurses.  Yesterday, after seeing the video of Pretti’s assassination, I said to my wife, “I don’t recognize the country I live in anymore.”  

As I’m typing these words, I’m trying to formulate a message that isn’t all anger and retribution.  I’m failing miserably because I want these federal thugs to be arrested, convicted, and punished.  The Winter Olympics will be starting in Italy very soon, and, if I were an athlete, I’d be ashamed to represent the United States.  (Keep in mind that the fear and righteous anger we all feel right now is the same fear and righteous anger that African and Indigenous Americans have been experiencing for hundreds of years.)

I haven’t lost hope completely, though.  As Ann Frank said, 

In spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart. I simply can’t build up my hopes on a foundation consisting of confusion, misery, and death. I see the world gradually being turned into a wilderness, I hear the ever approaching thunder, which will destroy us too, I can feel the sufferings of millions and yet, if I look up into the heavens, I think that it will all come right, that this cruelty too will end, and that peace and tranquility will return again.

Ann Frank was right.  The cruelty did end, but not before she was killed in a Nazi concentration camp.  Renee Good and Alex Pretti are martyrs for democracy, freedom, kindness, and compassion.  One day, plaques and statues should be erected in their honor.  They should never be forgotten.  

That is Saint Marty’s hope.  

A poem for tonight . . . 

Laundry Day

for Alex Pretti

by: Martin Achatz

I sit with the normal Saturday-morning crew, watch underwear, socks tumble and agitate as if I’m binging some Netflix series.  Martin and Malcolm have loads going, too, built up after a week of marching and teargas in the Twin Cities.  They huddle in a corner, drink hot coffee, compare notes, bruises, scars from the good old days, wonder when the good old days will end.  Alex comes in, fills a washer with towels and sheets, finds a seat, asks no one in particular, Is this a dream?  Martin and Malcolm laugh, offer him a stick of Juicy Fruit.  All three watch the machines cycle and spin, cycle and spin, trying to remove stains that just won’t come out, even after hundreds of years of scrubbing.



Friday, January 23, 2026

January 23, 2026: “Practicing,” Being Gone, “Exes”

It was a good day to stay inside.  In fact, it was a good day just to stay in bed.

The windchills were between -35 ad -40 degrees Fahrenheit.  I’m pretty sure all the schools and colleges and universities in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan were shut down.  I took the day off work.  (I planned this a while ago, independent of the weather forecasts.)

So, I sat on my couch most of today, watching dumb Hallmark Christmas movies, practicing being gone.

Marie Howe on being a ghost . . . 

Practicing

by: Marie Howe

Today I’m going to practice being dead for a few hours.

No one can expect anything from me.


No emails.  No groceries.

Our little dog Jack watches me walk


from room to room, but,

for a few hours, he is the only one who can,


and he returns contentedly to his bone.

I say bone—it’s what the pet store calls


a bully stick, which is in fact a bull’s penis—

dried out and hard.


That a small dog should chew on a bull’s penis!

Well, we eat swordfish, don’t we?


And the shy octopus whose brains

are in her arms?


The sunlight enters the small kitchen

spilling across the white enamel table


and the chipped blue wooden chair

whether anyone is there to see it, or not.


Meister Elkhart says, There never was a man who forsook himself so much

that he would not still fund more in himself to forsake.


Nevertheless, it’s good to have a dog with you when you are practicing

not being there:  you don’t feel so all alone.



Especially nowadays, it’s pretty easy to feel all alone.  I’ve written about this isolation in my previous two posts.  With so much division and cruelty happening in the streets of the United States, it’s really easy to contemplate just not being here, as Howe says.

Today, I absented myself from almost everything that I normally do.  I didn’t speak with anybody.  Didn’t work at the library,  Didn’t teach.  I even managed to look at my cell phone only once or twice all day long.I guess you could say I was practicing being dead.

It’s not a bad thing contemplating your absence from this mortal coil.  It’s a way to remind yourself of your place in the grand scheme of things.  I often wonder if what I do for a living/as a person makes any difference,  Poetry doesn’t put food in the mouths of starving kids.  Teaching doesn’t assist a homeless person with finding a place to live.  Blogging doesn’t stop a war.  Yet, I’m always reminded what Clarence the angel says to George Bailey in It’s a Wonderful Life:  “Strange, isn’t it?  Each man’s life touches so many other lives,  When he isn’t around he leaves an awful hole, doesn’t he?”

I like to think I’d leave an awful hole if I wasn’t here.  Whenever I do something, my goal is always the same:  leave the world a better place.  I want to be remembered as someone who loved and cared deeply for everyone and everything.  I’m sure I don’t always succeed.  However, I try each and every day.  That’s all any of us can do.

It’s getting late.  I’m tired.  Once I publish this post, I will more than likely go to sleep.  That’s one thing Howe doesn’t say:  being gone is exhausting.  I’m not sure if that means being dead is exhausting, too.  Hopefully, I won’t find out for a while.

Saint Marty wrote a poem for tonight about people being gone . . . 

Exes

by: Martin Achatz

How do you become an ex-anything?
Am I an ex-student because I no longer
take classes?  Am I an ex-son because
both my parents are in Holy Cross
Cemetery?  If I don’t write a poem
for a year, am I then an ex-poet?
How about the best man at my wedding?
He lives in New Zealand, flies helicopters,
finds sheep in his yard every morning.
I haven’t spoken with him in two 
years.  Does that make him an ex-
friend?  Ex-best man?  Years from now,
will my daughter find an old wedding
picture, point at him standing next
to me, say, “Who’s this guy?”  Will
I struggle to remember his name?
Bobby something or other?  Maybe Brian?
I imagine he named one of those sheep 
after me, calls to it as he sips his coffee
at sunrise:  Good boy, Donald!




Wednesday, January 21, 2026

January 21, 2026: "Postscript," Cold, "There Are No Flowers in Minneapolis"

I truly appreciate all the people who responded to my last post.  It's easy to feel isolated right now.  You're never sure where people are politically or what subject is "safe."  It's exhausting.  So all the messages I received (both on this blog and privately) have made me feel less alone.

I am going to try to balance the good and the bad in my posts this year.  Believe it or not, there's still a lot of beauty in the world.  (It's just difficult to see it through all the teargas.  Sorry, not sorry.)  For example, I'm currently sitting in my new office at the library, looking out at Lake Superior from my window.  The lake is gray and cold-looking, the shoreline fringed with ice and snow.  It's austere and lovely, like a stern grandfather who always has a butterscotch in his pocket for you.  The world is full of wonder.

Marie Howe reflects on how we've treated the world . . . 

Postscript

by: Marie Howe

What we did to the earth, we did to our daughters

one after the other.


What we did to the trees we did to our elders

stacked in their wheelchairs by the lunchroom door.


What we did to our daughters, we did to our sons

calling out for their mothers.


What we did to the trees, what we did to the earth

we did to our sons, to our daughters.


What we did to the cow, to the pig, to the lamb,

we did to the earth, butchered and milked it.


Few of us knew what the bird calls meant

or what the fires were saying.


We took of earth and took and took, and the earth

seemed not to mind,


until one of our daughters shouted:  It was right

in front of you, right in front of your eyes


and you didn't see.

The air turned red.  The ocean grew teeth.



Yes, humankind has fucked up this planet greatly.  Howe is right about that.  We have taken and taken and taken, without considering the cost of each taken.  Hence, Deepwater Horizon and Exxon Valdez and Chernobyl.  The air is turning red, and the oceans do bite.

At the moment, my little corner of the Upper Peninsula is cold, and it's going to get colder and colder.  By Friday, windchills will hit -30 and -40 degrees Fahrenheit.  Those kinds of temperatures seem vindictive, like the earth is getting even with us for being such terrible stewards of its resources.  

But there was warmth and joy in my life this evening.  I hosted a concert at the library featuring two lovely musicians—the Seth Brown Duo.  The music lifted my spirits and reminded me that there are still good people in the world, despite the violence and outright cruelty occurring in the streets and neighborhoods of Minneapolis and St. Paul.  It’s very easy to lose sight of beauty and joy these days.

Tonight, I am grateful for music and friends.  Yes, the United States is a big ol’ dumpster fire at the moment, but change is coming.  It’s inevitable.  And, for 60 minutes tonight, I forgot to be frightened or pissed off.  Instead, I sang “Don’t Worry Be Happy” and “Imagine.”

Maybe John Lennon got it right—no heaven, no hell, just a world living as one.  We all need to be dreamers.

Saint Marty wrote a poem tonight about happiness.

There Are No Flowers in Minneapolis

by:  Martin Achatz

No fresh daisies push through
cracks in sidewalks, no plumes
of lilac dust the air.  Geraniums
stay hidden behind locked
doors, refuse to open, bloom.
Even florists hide their silken
arrays in basements, secret back
rooms, Anne Frank orchids that dream
of riding on young girls’ wrists
and sparrow chests for junior prom.
Even the morning glory avoids
the rising sun, hides its face
from anyone who wants to pluck
it before smiles start to blossom.



Monday, January 19, 2026

January 19, 2026: “Prologue,” Marie Howe, MLK Day, “Broken Snow Shovel”

I have a confession:  I’m having difficulty writing.  

No, it’s not writer’s block.  I’m still scribbling in my journal, and every once in a while a poem appears.  Yet, on a day-to-day basis, I’m overwhelmed by the state of the world, or, more specifically, my country.  I find very little that’s uplifting and beautiful right now.  There are ruthless thugs brutalizing, kidnapping, and disappearing people across the United States.  Our unhinged pathological narcissist “leader” is invading sovereign nations; un-aliving innocents; and covering up child sex trafficking.  People are starving, losing jobs, and getting sick because our elected officials are more concerned with playing political games than actually doing what they’re paid to do:  taking care of their constituents.  It feels as if the great experiment of the United States of America is collapsing before my eyes.

That’s my struggle.

I’ve chosen Marie Howe as 2026’s poet of the year for this blog.  I’ve loved her writing for a very long time because she’s fearless.  She embraces joy and grief.  Hopefulness and hopelessness.  Light and dark.  

Prologue

by: Marie Howe

In the middle of my life—just past the middle—

walking along the street with our little dog Jack on a leash

—OK—just past the late-middle—


in what some might call early old age,

on a street crowded with children and tourists


my father dead, my mother dead,

my young husband gone from me and grown older (a father

a husband now to someone else),


Jason dead, John dead, Jane and Stanley and Lucy and Lucie

and Billy and Tony and now Richard dead,

I came to the edge

and I did not know that way.




Like Howe, I don’t know the way, either.  Should I just go about writing my pretty poems and turn a blind eye to all the violence and hatred around me?  Or take to the streets, march, raise my voice, stand in the line of fire?  I don’t know what my role is here, except to bear witness, speak the truth.  And I’m not sure that’s enough.

Today was Martin Luther King Day in the United States (regardless of any of #47’s Executive Orders).  We honor the memory of this brave man who did march, raise his voice, stand in the line of fire.  Martin dreamed of a better world, and he did everything in his power to make that dream a reality.  I’m sure, at times, Dr. King lost hope, got pissed.  How could he not, living in a country where racism is as much a part of our history as the Boston Tea Party?  Yet, he never gave up.

One person can make a difference.  Ask Martin.  Or Gandhi.  Or Malcom.  Or Nelson.  Or Mother Teresa.  Or Malala.  Or Dorothy Day.  

That’s my prologue for 2026.  We all need to stand up.  March.  Speak out.  Not lose hope.  If we do all that, we shall overcome.

Saint Marty wrote a poem for today about shoveling snow , , , 

Broken Snow Shovel

by: Martin Achatz

Ten winters, it battled
snow, ice, boulders of earth
hard as iron, storm after flurry
after blizzard after squall.
This morning, a wooden snap,
like a moose crashing through 
deadfall and brush, and its yellow
scoop head lodged in a ridge
of heavy slush, stayed there,
the way mammoths laid down
to nap eons ago, stayed buried
until some farmer plowed up 
their ribs and curled tusks.
January has just begun, several
shoveling months ahead.  I consider
gluing the handle back into
the scoop, taking the chance
it will last until the final flakes
of March or April or sometimes May.
Instead, I leave the scoop stuck,
push more snow over it, erase it
from the white landscape.  When
the waters of spring come, it will
emerge from its grave, remind me 
of this frozen day when I swear 
I see something immense and wooly 
lumbering down my street toward summer.



Saturday, January 10, 2026

January 10, 2026: New Year, Renee Nicole Good, “They Shoot Poets, Don’t They?”

Greetings, disciples!

Welcome to a new year of Saint Marty.  I have not dropped off the face of the earth.  I have been recuperating from a lengthy holiday illness, and, to be honest, overwhelmed by the state of my country and the world in, general.

Now that the year of Sharon Olds is over for the blog, I will be announcing 2026’s featured poet in the next post.  She is a writer whom I’ve admired for years, and I’m sure you’ll fall in love with her, as well.

Speaking of poets, I, of course, have been so sad and angry and outraged by the murder of Renee Nicole Good in Minneapolis.  I never thought I’d live to see the day that a masked, armed federal agent would be able to shoot an innocent citizen in the face and walk away free.  A poet friend of mine sent me a text yesterday:

Jesus, Marty, Renee Good was one of us.  Poet, parent, liberal.  She could have been me or you . . . and some son of a bitch given a license to kill by [47] shot her three fucking times because she was fleeing his violent little children’s game.  I’m really pissed off.

Yes, Renee Good was a poet, mother, and wife.  She loved her family and neighbors.  And, like most poets I know, she was trying to make the world a better, safer, more loving place.  Like my friend, I am truly pissed off.  I’ve been drowning in a whirlpool of emotions these past few days.

And, like most poets I know, when I am overcome by tragedy or anger, I turn to words to try to sort out my emotions.

Her name was Renee Nicole Good, and Saint Marty honors her tonight , , , 

They Shoot Poets, Don’t They?

by: Martin Achatz

for Renee Nicole Good

Stop.  Just stop.
Stop being angry or outraged.
Stop jamming fingers or guns in faces.
Look into those faces instead, white or brown,
into those eyes, blue or brown, see
what you can’t see when whistles
scream in your ears, when tear gas
makes your eyes and noses weep.
See a mother who drives
her six-year-old son to school,
shoves his stuffed T-Rex into 
the glovebox so it’s there to greet
him at the end of the day.  See
a wife who needs to pick up
toilet paper and cheese and ketchup
from Kroger.  See a neighbor
who drops off a pan of lasagna
when the man next door loses
his 55-year-old spouse in the middle
of the night to a heart attack.  And
see a poet who sends words out 
into the universe, watches them dip, 
swirl, circle, away and away, 
pollinating, spreading, wildflowering 
until everyone is honeyed in beauty.